It’s been a really long week and I’m unbelievably stressed out. My chest is feeling heavy and I can’t seem to relax. The boys have been at each other’s throats and Gavin has been freaking out for the last couple of days.
The noise is really starting to get to me. The kids are struggling with lockdown and while it’s a necessary evil for the foreseeable future, it’s getting harder and harder to get through the day.
My kids hate, and I mean hate change. This has proven to be much more change than they’re able to cope with. It’s really getting to be much harder as time goes on because everyone’s patience and tolerance is wearing thin.
Gavin is finally off the Clozapine and has been for a few days now. Aside from some occasional nausea he seems to be doing better as time goes on. He’s incessantly talking but he seems to be doing better with each passing day. That’s hugely positive and frankly, cannot be overstated.
Trying to work has proven to be incredibly challenging with the kids home 24/7. I’ve recorded 4 podcasts that still need to be edited. They’re taking longer to mix due to background noise. I take pride in relatively decent audio quality and combing through an hour plus of multiple audio streams is very time consuming.
My laptop is on its way out and so there are multiple obstacles in my path but I’m trying very hard to work with what I have and make the best of it.
Before I leave you tonight, I did want to share this little tidbit of information with you. You may or may not know this but for the last week or so, I’ve been recording video diaries about my daily struggles for the Tamron Hall show.
Rob i am watching Tamron repeat this show. I never watch repeats, especially during the pandemic. However, I am watching just because of you and your boys. You are an amazing father, and person! I hope you and your beautiful family are doing well. My nephew has severe autism and I know not being in his normal routine is very challenging. I can not imagine how difficult that is times 3!! My prayers for you and the boys during this quarantine. Stay strong and keep being the awesome father/man that you are!
Always keep in mind Rob that you have people out here who admire everything you have done and will continue to accomplish to help, not just yourself and your family, but all of us parents and caretakers of children and adults with autism. When you look around and see pockets of insanity in our world, it’s nice to know there are people like you who understand and are brave enough to open up your personal life, dealing with autism, to all of us to help us through the same type of life situations you are going through. I commend you and all your efforts to help all us other parents and caregivers. You and the boys be safe and continue doing what you’re doing.