It’s been a rough couple of days. I’m really stressed out and feeling incredibly overwhelmed. I’m trying to keep up with everything I’m supposed to be keeping up with but it’s not going so well.

That being said, I also feel like all things considered, I’m doing okay. I know that sounds a little weird or contradictory but I’m treading water. To be honest, I’m a little surprised by how well I’m coping. To be clear, I’m anxious, overwhelmed, and exhausted, but I’m managing.

The major things stressing me out are largely outside of my control and freaking out over them isn’t going to help. Maybe I’m just too tired to panic but I really think it has a lot to do with recognizing that I need to focus more on the things I can influence. It’s not perfect but life itself is a work in progress.

In other news, the house has been a little quieter over the last few days because Gavin decided he wanted to spend a few days at his grandparents. He needed a break and frankly, so did we. It’s just been Elliott, Emmett, and myself this weekend. Not only was this good for Gavin, but it also helps the rest of us prepare for what it’s going to be like when he moves out.

I’m trying to take advantage of the break, and while the timing is not ideal, I’m taking the E’s on a day trip this weekend. I’ve been so stressed out and I know it’s impacting them as well. We’re going to go spend the day exploring nature in southern Ohio. I’m really looking forward to this because I know the kids are going to have a blast. I can disconnect for a little while watch my kids being kids.

Sometimes we have to bump things up on the priority list, even if the timing is less than ideal. This is one of those times.

I’m really looking forward to this and I can’t wait to spend some quality time with my kids.