I think that we had a pretty decent day overall and I'm grateful for that. I managed to get some laundry done and even bribe my kids to clean their room. I'm seriously running low on *shits to give *and I'm not above bribary in order to maintain my sanity at this point.
Therapy went pretty well today also. I'm still getting used to accessing therapy remotely but I'm so grateful that I have the opportunity to continue getting help during lockdown.
I got some work done this afternoon (paying marketing gigs) and I'm working on a outline for another podcast later this week. I do have a few interviews in the planning stages and I should know more about the timing in the next few days.
One thing that I'm absolutely failing at is selfcare. I'm way off course and I'm struggling to find my way back on the road. True to form for me, I'm not cutting myself any slack and instead, I'm beating myself up, which is counter-productive.
I haven't had a good night's sleep in forever and that's playing a role in my unraveling. I can't seem to shut my brain off long enough to fall asleep. It's actually quite frustrating. By the time I fall asleep, it's time to wake up. This is how I woke up this morning. Ruby was sitting on my chest staring at me. When she wants your attention, she likes to tap her front feet.
I'm sleeping this morning and she's tapping away on my chest, trying to wake me up. Lol
I'm trying to get the kids to finish their homework and they've done much better this week than last week. If you've listened to my last pod, you already know that I'm quickly reaching the *I just don't give a fuck *headspace in regards to homework. I have about three shits left to give and they need to last me the duration of lockdown. I can't afford to waste them on homework battles.
Putting all that aside, I am thrilled because Gavin is writing again. He wrote a chapter yesterday and another one today. He's even decided it's time to start typing up what he's already written. I'm really excited about that because that will make it much easier to manage and help him with. There's also the added bonus of redundancy. At the moment, if he loses his notebook, he's lost everything.
I'm looking forward to helping him learn to use Word or Google Doc's. I love seeing Gavin learn new things and it gives me hope for the future. It's really important that I keep his brain engaged, especially since he's coming off his medication.
Speaking of medication. Gavin has completed the first stage of discontinuing the Clozapine. He took 200mg a day for four days and tomorrow he begins 100mg a day for four days. He'll end after taking 50mg a day for four days. If things are going to get challenging, I'm getting close to the point that I'm going to begin noticing.
Anyway, that's my claim to fame for today. Nothing spectacular but surviving is surviving.
There's nothing on the agenda for Thursday and aside from some additional laundry and maybe some work, but it should be a slower day.
As always, I hope you are all doing well. I hope that you and your loved ones are safe and healthy during this difficult time for the human race. Stay smart. Be careful and stick together. Social Distancing is absolutely vital and I thank everyone of you practicing that because you're helping to keep Gavin safe.
