I’m feeling a smidgen better than I was last night, although I didn’t fall asleep until about 7 AM. From there I got a few hours before waking up and getting myself moving. I don’t want to sleep the day away for many reasons but the most prominent being a desire to not perpetuate the problem by sleeping all day and not being tired at bedtime.

That’s my goal anyway. Who knows if it’s going to actually work.

Everyone seems to be in a mood today and I’m not sure why. I also don’t know what I can do to sorta break everyone free of their moods and redirect us onto a better course.

I’m feeling torn between being responsible and being a bit more spontaneous.

I don’t remember if I mentioned before but all I wanted to do for Father’s Day was take the kids to see the new Incredible’s movie. They’re all dying to see it and I would feel amazing being able to do that for them. At the same time, I need to keep the power on and even be as ready as possible to pay for Gavin’s new medication out of pocket, if there are any insurance hiccups. I don’t know that there will be any hiccups but he needs whatever we decide to replace his GAMMAGARD with and there have been plenty of times along the way that we’ve had to pay out of pocket for things that were later covered by insurance.

Like I said, I’m torn.

I wish things were easier and tough choices didn’t have to be made but those are the cards I have to play. I don’t get to pick from a new deck and I certainly can’t stack them in my favor.

Sometimes the hardest thing I can do is acknowledge my limitations and work within them, doing the best I can to make as much positive come from things as possible.