I’m pretty tired still from from you know, my life.  The boys were in good spirits this morning but impossible to keep them on task. It’s like trying to herd lemmings.  Everytime I turn around, they’re trying to jump off the edge of a cliff. 

Constantly having to stay on top of them is an exhausting but necessary evil.

It’s the kind of thing that can sometimes be very defeating for me because I don’t like losing my patience with my kids and this requires every last drop of what I have.

It would be one thing if they just weren’t listening but they’re so goddamn impulsive and so easily distracted, that even when they try their best, which I know they do, they’re still all over the place.  This is why I really try to maintain perspective.

My feelings of defeat surface because punishing them for something they cannot control is just not something I’m willing to do.  At the same time however, I feel like they still need to be responsible for their actions/decisions. At least within reason. 

They both are the poster children for ADHD and so trying to find that fragile balance is not easy.

At the end of the day, they got to school and while it’s sapped all my energy to get them there, at least they got there in the first place.  That’s got to count for something, right?