It's been an exhausting day. Lizze and I had a few conversations today about how things have been going and what we needed to do to continue moving forward.
These conversations didn't always go well because Lizze and I are both tired, worn out and completely overwhelmed. The topics were about her health, which can be a sensitive issue, Gavin's health, what's going on with the two youngest and how we are going to try and makes things better for everyone.
To be completely honest, it can sometimes be easy for us to sorta lash out at each other, especially when touching on sensitive issues.
It's not like we have any real or significant problems, it's more like venting at each other because we know it's safe to do so. Sometimes we need to purge and get things off our chests so we can heal and move forward.
At the end of the day though, everything got worked out. We agreed to make a few changes that will make things a bit more manageable for me and will help Lizze to get more of what she's needs as well.
One would think that with all the things we have going on in our lives that we would be at each others throats more often.
The truth is that life with three special needs kids, especially with one being medically fragile, isn't even in the same universe as easy. Factor in the additional strain of one parent being chronically ill and struggling emotionally and there isn't a scale on this planet to measure the amount of stress that produces.
Having said that, Lizze and I really don't fight. We have disagreements and sometimes they can be a bit heated but we actually do really well.
We can each say things that are hurtful to each other but I think we've sorta learned over the last 12 or 13 years that we don't mean these things and they really don't happen very often. When they do happen, it's usually after dealing with an emotionally charged or stressful situation. An example would be something related to Gavin's health. We are both absolutely terrified of what's going to happen to him and that can be very overwhelming.
I think that people outside of the special needs community, generally have no clue what our lives are like. Truthfully, how can they?
Speaking only to my personal family situation but I'm sure that many of you out there can relate. Every doctor we have working with us has told us over and over again that they have no idea how we do it..
My personal favorite is when they try to quantify the amount of stress we are dealing with on a constant, unforgiving, daily basis. They simply tell us that there's no scale in existence that can measure our stress level because it's simply too extreme.
Despite all of that, Lizze and I are very close and connected on a really deep level. Our family is hanging in there and I'm so proud of each and every one of them. I really believe that it's a testament to their unbelievable strength and tenacity.
It would be utterly ridiculous of me to try and make it sound like this is easy for any of us. Sometimes we can make it look much easier than it actually is.
Every day is a struggle. Sometimes it's a struggle to literally survive and other times it's a struggle to keep from losing traction and subsequently progress. Still other times are filled with absolute joy and elation.....
The bottom line is that in the Lost and Tired family, we stick together, love each other and never, ever leave anyone behind.
Reading our story isn't always pretty, pleasant or uplifting but it's honest, raw and gets to the heart of what many fames out there are going through. I'm really proud of that. . :-)
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