I think that the stress of everything is taking its toll on me right now. The weird thing is that I don't feel stressed out anymore and that's probably not a good thing. I'm so used to stress of unbelievable levels, that I actually feel worse when things are going good.
Isn't that crazy?
I know that my body's on overload because I never, ever get sick. For last week or two, I've been struggling with this respiratory *thing*. I was doing better for a couple of days but have since relapsed. <img src="https://lxnxuovarpoeyuzaxuet.supabase.co/storage/v1/object/public/blog-images/inline/2013/11/wpid-textgram_1385770795.png" alt="" class="inline-block max-w-full h-auto rounded-xl my-4" loading="lazy" />
I feel pretty terrible right now but I'm mostly exhausted and completely drained of anything even remotely resembling energy. Lizze really tries to let me rest but she has limitations put in place by her own significant health issues and can only do so much.
One of the things that I'm doing to try and address these problematic levels of stress is to start putting things down and stop picking things up.
I'll share some of the more specific changes I've made and exactly what I've put down, in another post.
I just don't know how to explain the amount of pressure I feel each and every day of my life. In truth, many of you don't need me to explain that to you because you live it every day.
My hope is that I can slowly start to help my body unwind and unknot itself. I don't expect this to be a quick process but I do hope that if I really try my best to stop taking on more responsibility, I can become a bit more buoyant and stay afloat a little easier.
Right now I'm just laying on the couch listening to Google Play Music and trying to convince myself that everything is going to be okay.
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