Today has been one of those days, that in hindsight, I should have just slept straight through. Sure, the kids wouldn’t have gotten to school but if I hadn’t had to pick the kids up this afternoon, I wouldn’t have discovered the van is having issues.
The van stalled out twice, on the way home from school this afternoon. If we hadn’t gone to Dr. Pattie’s tonight for therapy, the van wouldn’t have stalled a few more times either.
I understand that sleeping through the day only postpones the inevitable, but anymore, my happy place is only found in the warm and welcoming arms of blissful ignorance.
It sounds silly but having a happy place can help preserve your dwindling sanity. It’s kinda like playing pretend when we were kids, only now we’re grownups…err.. something like that anyway.
Seriously though, I wish I could have avoided many of the things that happened today. Life is always testing my limits and abilities to cope or even survive. I try really hard to stay positive but the truth is sometimes things can get so shitty, that be positive isn’t always easy or even possible.
All I can do is try to keep moving forward and not allow myself to focus on the things that I can’t control. If I focus on the negative, I will be buried before I know it.
Today’s been a really shitty day but we survived it….. I don’t know how we’ll make it through tomorrow but we’ll cross that bridge when we get there.
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rjones22 I’ll be honest. It’s just nice when people can relate. 🙂 The van thing frustrates me because we are only in this situation because two assholes stole our old van, as I was walking out to get in. They totaled it out and we were forced to us this one. This is what caused our financial downfall……
i am so glad you wrote all that. I am trying to stay positive too. my partial list of today is everyone is fed, everyone is medicated, i have gas, the dog is alive, the lights are on, my neighbor let me borrow a cup of sugar last night, i dont have to cook, the house looks ok, i killed the ants and they didnt come back and i am forcing myself to go take a shower in a minute because that is what regular people do. I understand positive and shitty in the same sentence. my car is so close to being paid off, i am afraid it will break down. Great news when I thought about the car today i could rejoice in it almost being paid off, no terrible lights or sounds are happening and just in case i have my son’s firestone account (he was sweet enough to put me on it) if something did go wrong i could get it fixed. I am mad about your van. not as mad as you, but I have been with you since the van purchase and I cant stand that you think you made a mistake in getting it because you DIDNT know it was going to break so it wasnt a mistake but broken is still broken and unfortunately i cant even make a dent in helping you