As I was walking upstairs to go to bed tonight, I found Elliott standing at the top of the stairs.  After being startled by this, mostly because Lizze and I were watching Supernatural all evening, we tucked him back into bed.

I ended up sitting with him until he fell asleep. 

Something was bothering him but he wouldn’t talk about it. All I could do was provide whatever comfort I could and respect his wishes not to talk about it.

I made sure that he knew I was there for him and I let it go. 

Letting it go is so much easier said than done for me.  I’m a fixer by nature and I want to fix whatever is wrong.  Unfortunately, sometimes the only thing I can do is just be there. 

The rest of the time was spent in silence as he fell back asleep.  These moments make me cry because I feel like he’s in pain and I can’t do anything about it.

I wanted to dedicate this song to Elliott because he’s so sweet and so kind.  He deserves sweet dreams and peaceful nights. 

If you are reading this at some point Elliott. Please know how much I love you…….

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