I’ve mentioned many times before,  that when it comes to Gavin,  I have a hard time accepting that he is capable of the things he is.  In the back if my mind,  there’s always this little voice that keeps saying that he’s just misunderstood.

As a parent,  it’s really difficult to believe that your child is broken in a way that can’t be fixed. 

I know that using the word broken is going to rub some people the wrong way. However,  when I refer to parts of Gavin as broken,  I’m not referring to autism.  I’m referring to the fact that he’s missing crucial neurological connections that can’t be fixed.
These missing neurological connections are the root cause of the very serious mental health issues.

Truthfully, I hate using the word broken,  but unfortunately, it’s the most accurate way to describe his condition.

It becomes even more difficult when you have to protect one of your kids from another.  You may think that’s rock bottom,  but there is still room to fall. This happens when you realize that the only way to protect your other children is to get the offending child out of the house.

Even though you know in your heart its the right thing to do,  it never feels like it is.

You would think it comforting to know that the only hope for this child is intensive, long term residential care, but it isn’t.

However, despite all these emotions, I have to strengthen my resolve to do the right thing.

This was posted via WordPress for Android, courtesy of Samsung’s Galaxy S III. Please forgive any typos. I do know how to spell but auto-correct hate me.

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