Please understand, I love my family more than anything in the world. I wouldn't give them up for anything.
However, with that said, there are times, like today, where I miss my old life. I miss the freedom and relatively carefree lifestyle I once had.
Now, don't get me wrong, if I was presented with an opportunity to go back and change things, I would still want to be where I am today. It's just that sometimes things just become so overwhelming that long for those easier days.
Sometimes I'll hear a song on Google Music and I'm instantly transported back in to my college days. Living with friends, going out and having fun and not having to make the types of decisions I do today. I miss my friends dearly and I haven't spoken to most in a really long time.
I miss my days on the Fire Department. I miss the brotherhood I formed with my fellow firefighters. I miss savings lives and making an impact on the lives of others.
I even miss working as a waiter. I loved meeting new people and having regular customers. I miss going out with my friends after work.
I miss the financial stability I once had. Believe it or not, I used to have perfect credit. I could finance almost anything without much trouble.
I guess those days have become my happy place. The place I go to when things get really crazy and I need to hide away for a little bit. The problem is that once I'm there, I don't always want to come back right away. That makes it kind of a double edged sword.
Anymore, I have a hard time simply stringing coherent thoughts together. I stress eat, I can't get away long enough to go running and get back in shape.
Someone seems to always be screaming about something. The only peace and quiet is late evenings when I should be going to bed but I'm instead, trying to get caught up on everything in couldn't do during the day.
It's always the same thing, over and over again.. Again, I love my family and they are not making me unhappy. I think that I'm just in an overwhelming situation and after awhile it starts to wear me down. Especially when things just continue to become more difficult.
Anyway, I was wondering if any of you out there ever miss your old life. Maybe I'm the only one. Just thought I would ask. :-)
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