Autism affects all families it touches. Blended families are especially affected. As you know I adopted Gavin he is not mu biological son. I want to be very clear that I'm not necessarily proud of how I feel but it is my reality so here it goes.
Right now I am having a really hard time with Gavin because he is having such a negative impact on his younger brothers. I know it's not always his fault but it impacts regardless of intentions. I have given Gavin the last 10 years of my life and now it has become apparent that the 2 youngest desperately need a reprieve from all of this. That will never happen with Gavin struggling the way he is right now.
Go ahead and get out your torch and pitch forks because I feel like I have to choose between my kids and I'm choosing EJ and ER. No one seems to understand how I feel. When ever I bring it up people look at me like I'm some kind of monster for feeling that way. Look, I love Gavin. If I didn't I wouldn't have gone through everything I did for him. However, the moment ER and EJ were born I began to feel the difference. There is a very deep biological connection between me and the boys. That connection simply doesn't exist with Gavin. This shouldn't be confused with lack of love because that is not the case. It's just different, that's all.
Gavin's behaviors have become a threat to the health,safety and wellbeing of everyone in the house. Something has to give.
