I’m exhausted but feeling blessed

I apologize for not writing today. I've been doing a pretty good job of writing throughout the day recently. It feels good to be doing that again.  Unfortunately, I've been spread pretty thin lately and today had me buried.  I was up late with Emmett last night because he was sick. In fact, both boys missed school because they were running fevers. I just checked them before I crawled into bed and both are fever free at this moment in time, and God willing, returning to school in the AM.  I've been run kinda ragged, but I've turned in two articles this week and I'm really excited about that. Both will help, but do so in different ways. I have one more left to do and I'll have that done…

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I have good news and bad news tonight

Today has been one of those days were it's truly been a mix bag. We've been blessed with some really positive events today. At the same time, there's some bad news as well. I think that's how life sorta balances everything out.  In fairness though, life has a pretty shitty track record for balancing things out for us, and a lot of other families.  I want to begin with the good news because it's a pretty big deal.  I had been talking about how things being tight this month and how we are adjusting to a significantly reduced grocery budget. This has had me really stressed out and scrambling to figure out our options. Last night, or rather very early this morning, my new advertising deal came through. I hadn't…

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More homework frustration for my son with #Autism 

Both boys had a good day at school but Elliott's a bit frustrated over his homework for the week. Homework proves to be a struggle when he has four days in which to do it. I've written about this countless times.  Elliott is frustrated because it's a short school week and yet they're given the same amount of homework to do.  I can understand his frustration and I'm not quite sure of the logic that goes into the decision to do this. If homework is a problem on a full week, why not reduce the amount proportionally on a short week? That seems reasonable to me, because I know Elliott's far from the only one who struggles with homework in his class.  We'll help Elliott to get as much done…

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Gavin’s complaining of the weirdest thing today

Ever since Gavin was little, hes had a weird relationship with pain. It's been labeled a sensory issue but it's still weird.  Back when Gavin was self-injuring in a major way, he would scratch his face open or punch his legs until he left giant bruises. He would never complain about these things hurting and they obviously should have hurt.  At the same time, if he had a barely visible hang nail, he would freak out and react as though it was the end of the world. He's always been this way.  This morning, he began complaining the webbing between his fingers was cramping up. It wasn't his fingers or hands either. He specifically pointed to the webbing and said it's cramping between each finger, and on both hands.  WTF…

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Things got better after the massive meltdown

I was up with Elliott for most of the night. He was dealing with some congestion and doesn't cope well with that feeling.  He woke up about 1am and we moved downstairs so he could more easily sit up.  It took him a bit to get moving for school but once he did, he was feeling much better. Emmett on the other hand, was in a foul mood this morning and my ears are still ringing from all the screaming.  After a relatively major meltdown, he seemed to feel better and we were able to move on with our morning.  Both boys are currently in good moods and in school.. Unfortunately, it's Gavin's turn to not feel well.  It's going to be a long day..... 

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Why my heart breaks for my oldest #SpecialNeeds son

With all Gavin has going on in his young life, he's blissfully ignorant to what it all means. In a way, that's a blessing. He's always so positive and looking forward to growing up. He's seventeen years old and he's looking forward to growing up.  Gavin doesn't understand that there's a better than good chance, he will never be able to live on his own. He doesn't understand that he will never drive a car. As heartbreaking as it is for me to even say this, he will never get married or have kids of his own. 🙁  When Gavin says he can't wait until he's grown up, I don't know what to even say, except don't be in such a hurry to grow up..  Today he told me one…

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Sometimes we just need a break from each other

At the time of writing (10:30 PM), there's a really good chance that both Elliott and Emmett will be going to school in the morning. This would be a hugely positive thing for us, because we need a fricking break already.  The boys have been trapped in the house for most of Easter break because they've been sick.  It's safe to say that we are all getting on each other's nerves a little bit and could use our routine back. With everyone being fever free at this point, it looks like our routine is on its way... ☺  We love our kids and we know our kids love us. That doesn't mean we couldn't use a small, school day sized break from each other... ☺ 💙 

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This is what #Autism Parenting is like for me today and it’s not fun

Tensions seem pretty high right now because people are sick and we're trapped in the house. Lizze and I are both extremely stressed out today and that makes for a fun afternoon.  When my resources are as low as they are at the moment, I'm far less tolerant of everything Gavin does.  Normally, I doing well with the amount of patience I seem to have. I don't know of where it comes from but it always seems to be there. Today however, I'm running on fumes and things are getting to me that normally wouldn't.  Gavin's level of functionality is probably the lowest it's ever been, and as a result, I'm essentially having to micromanage his life at this point and it's absolutely exhausting. I know it's not his fault…

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