So things are getting a bit more challenging as the days drag on. Emmett is becoming increasingly frustrated with his schoolwork and I hate the idea of continuing to force this additional stress on him. The work isn't too hard, he's just overwhelmed by life and homework seems unnecessary. The boys haven't been going to bed before midnight for the last week or so. They are too anxious and stressed out to easily shutdown at the end of the day. I decided that I needed to regain some control in this area because life on lockdown is hard enough as it is. Trying to cope while sleep deprived is much more difficult. I shut everything down about 8 PM tonight. Emmett was really worked up over his schoolwork and experiencing…

It's been a couple of days since I've written anything. We're struggling but holding our own, at the same time. My brain is completely fried and I'm exhausted. I haven't been able to fall asleep for the last week or so. By the time I manage to pass out, it's about 6AM and I'm able to sneak a couple hours in before the kids are demanding my attention. Sometimes I can steal a nap but my whole cycle is thrown off and it's taking its toll. I desperately need to find the reset button for my circadian rhythm. The kids are doing okay but this is taking its toll on them as well. They're anxious, cranky and climbing the walls. Brotherly spats are more frequent and their inside voices aren't…

As we're on lockdown, the bulk of our suoies are being drop shipped and because of that, we've become buried in boxes. I guess I hadn't really been paying much attention to that but for whatever reason, I did today. I decided to break everything down and store them because we may need to use them at some point. I was pleasantly surprised when all the kids, including Gavin, began to help me without having to be asked. It's not that my kids can't be helpful, especially Gavin. It's just that it sometimes requires the pulling of teeth. To be fair, Gavin's always super helpful. Anyway, the point is, everyone helped and I'm profoundly grateful for that. I'm really overwhelmed and little things like this mean a great deal. ☺