Here’s why today will no longer represent loss in my life

My day was full of ups and downs. It was full of roller-coaster emotions and some very difficult situations that I didn't want to have to deal with. As I mentioned before, today was my sixteenth wedding anniversary. It's also the day my wife collected the rest of her belongings from the house today. Aside from the kids, there's nothing left to indicate she ever lived here. That's a bitter pill to swallow, especially on our anniversary. There are so many things running through my head, driving me crazy, but I know that moving forward is the best thing for the kids and me. I also had some truly amazing moments as well. Emmett was crazy brave while receiving two vaccines today. Mr. Elliott went to school without any major…

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Remaining focused on the positive isn’t easy but it’s important

I'm focusing on the positives today, at least I'm trying to. For right now, I have two things that I'm placing in the win column for right now. The first and by far, most important thing from today, is that the boys had a great day at school. Elliott complained that it was too hot, but outside of that he didn't have any complaints. I do know that he didn't eat his lunch and I don't like that but hopefully it's just a one time thing. Lastly, I have some cool free stuff coming from Samsung this week. Every year I upgrade to the new Samsung Note because I use it to run everything I do. The podcasts are recorded, edited, mixed and uploaded from my phone. All social media…

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How @AkronChildrens helped me protect my youngest son today

For the most part, our morning has gone on without too many issues, and any issues that we did have were quickly overcome. That's a pretty good feeling. I dropped Elliott off at school before taking Emmett to get some shots and Gavin to flget his blood work. We headed to Akron Children's Hospital new North Canton office for a nurse only appointment. He was incredibly brave, especially for an anxious kid who's constantly worrying about everything. He did awesomely and I couldn't possibly be any prouder. ☺ ♥ Today he received his Meningitis and Tetanus vaccines. That amounted to one in each arm and he didn't feel either of them. Our nurse at Akron Children's Hospital was fantastic and helped Emmett feel comfortable. The process was quick and painless.…

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Review: The New @NixplayCloud 9.7 Inch 2K Smart Photo Frame (W10E) is Gorgeous

Let's face it, who actually prints their pictures out or uses actual film anymore? In my opinion, the best way to display those precious memories taken on your digital camera or smartphone is with a digital picture frame. On the off chance that you are unfamiliar with what a digital frame is, here's the cliff notes.  Digital frames are picture frames with an HD display built in. This display allows you to show countless pictures, without having to pull the frame down, remove and replace the photo. You're able to show off countless pictures on a digital frame.I’ve used tons of digital frames over the years, and the frames by Nixplay are second to none. Nixplay has just released a brand new 9.7 inch Smart Photo Frame (model number…

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I’m heartbroken because of what today is but things will get better

Today marks the sixteenth and final year of my marriage. What was once a cause for celebration is now so painful I can hardly take it. I'm full of emotions right now and I don't know what to do. It's very difficult for me exist today because everything I've known is coming to an end. Accepting the end of things is not easy and it's going to take some time but I'm trying to focus on the idea of new beginnings. Sometimes things come to an end and we don't understand why. Sometimes we may never understand why and we have to move on anyway. I'm trying really hard to focus on the positives right now but but I'm struggling to embrace them. As hard as this is for me…

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Our week just got a bit more complicated

One of the most critical things I have to do every single Monday is make sure Gavin's blood work gets done. I mentioned that his Clozapine can be a nightmare and that timing is crucial. We took Gavin for his blood work this morning, only to find the lab was closed. It hadn't occurred to me that they would be closed on Labor Day. I guess I've not ever run into this before. This time last year, he was on a thirty day cycle and his blood work never fell on a holiday. When you have a thirty day window, it's much easier to get things done. Tomorrow morning I'm supposed to take Emmett for vaccines at the new Akron Children's Hospital office. It happens to share a parking lot…

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This medication is a godsend but it’s also a f*cking nightmare as well

This week is going to be pretty chaotic. We have a string of doctors appointments over the next few days that will require Emmett to miss some school. Emmett has some vaccines due this week. It's first thing in the morning, so I think he'll make it back to school. The next day will take us out of town and that's going to cost a full day. He hates missing school and isn't happy about this but these appointments are very important. Later in the week, Gavin has his follow-up with psych. It's just a medication check and I don't expect anything crazy to come from this. I'm hoping that we can move him from weekly blood work to every two weeks. That means he would get two weeks worth…

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He scared the shit out of me tonight

The boys and I had a pretty good day. Gavin of course had a good day, or was at least in a good mood. Gavin is nothing if not chronically happy. It can honestly be annoying sometimes but it's also something that I truly admire about him.. ☺ The only significant problem with Gavin was that he couldn't remember if he'd taken his Clozapine when he took his bedtime meds. He became very upset with himself for being unable to remember. Counting the pills wouldn't help either because of the refill timing. Just trust me on that. Counting the pills left in the bottle wouldn't help right now because we couldn't be certain. I have to assume he took it even if he didn't. The reason being that he'll be…

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