Forcing myself to look towards the future

One of the things that depression does to me is make it harder to see or plan for the future. I've always struggled with this and right now is no exception. With everything going on in my life, it's hard to see beyond the moment. It's for that reason that I'm forcing myself to do that right now. I feel like doing so will help me to work through some this darkness. The kids and I were talking about where we would like to move to, when it becomes a possibility. This was actually kinda fun because it got us all talking about what we would like to have in a new house. There are a few things that are very practical and others that are not. The kids were…

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Read more about the article Christmas shopping for our pets this year
Have you ever seen anyone looked more guilty before? This is the look of a dog who just spent 20 minutes outside, came back into the house and pooped on the floor.

Christmas shopping for our pets this year

I'm having a bit of fun and frustration as Christmas gets closer and closer. The boys are very indecisive this year and I'm having a hard time getting any ideas for what get them. I know this year is going to be new for all of us but I want to make it as special as I can. This is proving to be a bit challenging, but we'll get there. Have you ever seen anyone looked more guilty before? This is the look of a dog who just spent 20 minutes outside, came back into the house and pooped on the floor. One of the things the boys want to do is make sure we get something for our pets. We've never really done that before but I think it…

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The boys are gone tonight

The boys are at their mom and grandparents house tonight. I dropped them off about 1:30 pm and they seem to be having a great time. Elliott's still under the weather so they are possibly taking him to see the doctor in the morning. I ran a few errands and had an otherwise quite evening. While I needed the break, I am having a difficult time with life at the moment. The holidays are proving to be more difficult on me than I thought and I'm feeling very alone. I know that probably sounds stupid but it's my reality right now and I'm not going to hide from it. I didn't get everything done that I wanted to get done but I survived. I have a couple of jobs that…

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Read more about the article We’re supposed to have an out of town appointment this week
(We arrived at @AkronChildrens ) By: Rob Gorski https://www.theautismdad.com/2017/04/13/we-arrived-at-akronchildrens/ #Adhd, #Anxiety, #Aspergers, #Autism, #Bipolar, #CaregiverBurnout, #Dad, #Depression, #Family, #Insomnia, #Parenting, #Schizoaffective, #Sensory, #SpecialNeeds,

We’re supposed to have an out of town appointment this week

This week I have to have the boys to Akron Children's Hospital for a couple of reasons. First of all, they're sick and need to be followed. Secondly, I'm supposed to have them to the Behavioral Health Clinic for their monthly follow-up and meds check. As I'm thinking about this though, that may have to be rescheduled because if they're sick, aside for the pediatrician, they probably shouldn't be going anyhere. The pediatrician is local but the Behavioral Health Clinic is not. If we end up going to that, the kids will have to be pulled out of school right before lunch and won't have time to eat until after they're done. (We arrived at @AkronChildrens ) By: Rob Gorski https://www.theautismdad.com/2017/04/13/we-arrived-at-akronchildrens/ #Adhd, #Anxiety, #Aspergers, #Autism, #Bipolar, #CaregiverBurnout, #Dad, #Depression, #Family, #Insomnia,…

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Ethan Fisher Talks Tragedy and Triumph (S2E8)

S2E8 In this week's episode, I have the chance to talk with Ethan Fisher about depression, mental illness, addiction and suicide. Ethan is a keynote speaker who has turned tragedy into triumph. We discuss recognizing the signs of depression in our kids and how we can help them. He helps students all over the country by encouraging an open discussion about mental illness and substance abuse. I'm so grateful he had the time to talk with me about this. Support The Podcast You can find Ethan: ethan-fisher.com Twitter: https://twitter.com/UNDRAFTED_EFISH Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ethan.fisher.7 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/efish.lifecon/ Linkedin: https://www.linkedin.com/in/ethan-fisher-mba-5213b738/ You can find me: theautismdad.com Twitter: https://twitter.com/theautismdad This episode is sponsored by Lakikid.com. Visit Lakikid.com/theautismdad and use code “theautismdad” to save 15% on their amazing sensory tools. This episode is sponsored by Mightier. Mightier is an amazing program…

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My kids are f*cking ridiculous and I’m so thankful for them

I had a rough time sleeping last night but I did manage some sleep and I'm so grateful for that. Emmett made it almost the entire night in his own bed and I'm really proud of him. I was struggling a bit yesterday and I neglected to share some of the positives we experienced. As it's Thanksgiving here in the States, I wanted to share some things I'm thankful for. Let's start with my ridiculous kids. The other day, I took them to the park where we go walking. It was after therapy and it was very dark out. The only thing creating any light were the Christmas lights that the kids wanted to walk around and look at. It was really dark and frankly kind of creepy, so I…

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#Depression is kicking my ass tonight

I'm going to keep this short and sweet because my head is pounding and I need sleep. Writing has become a bit more challenging for me lately. Depression is exerting a good deal of control over my life right now. I'm working to regain control but it's not easy. I'm very overwhelmed and I'm constantly dropping the ball, or at least it feels like I'm. I will be trying to get back to writing but for the moment, I'm spread incredibly thin. The podcast is taking a great deal of time and energy but it's helping to pay the bills. I've got Christmas to worry about, along with a million other things. I'm so tired and I feel defeated. Tomorrow is a new day and I'm clinging to hope that…

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My f*cking head is going to explode

It's been a frustrating day for me. I had some unexpected issues arise that needed to be dealt with immediately and that thrust a heaping helping of additional stress on to me. I definitely didn't need that right now. On the positive side, the boys got to school and I went walking. I was able to pull off my interview this afternoon as well but I wasn't in the best mindset to do that today. I'm hoping it will turn out okay. Mr. Gavin is overwhelming me with his constant chatter. He has this compulsive need to narrate his life. It can be a lot to deal with on a good day and this is definitely not a good day.. He's constantly talking and I'm at a point where I…

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