The boys are getting ready to be picked up by my sister and taken for ice cream. This is for their respective birthdays.  It'll just be the E's cause Gavin already had his turn..  Both Elliott and Emmett have been at each other's throats today and the time outside the house, maybe just what the doctor ordered.  I know it's what my doctor ordered... 😁  I still have few errands to run but I'm too exhausted to be driving at this point.   When they leave, I'm going do what I can to get my second wind and pull it together. I have to see how I'm feeling.. 

It's been a pretty decent morning so far.  The kids are home from school today as a result of excessive heat conditions in a school without cooling capabilities.  The boys were pleasantly surprised, although Elliott was upset a little bit because he wanted to go to school.  They settled in nicely and are playing Minecraft together.   Lizze is at a doctor's appointment and I've been straightening up. All the boys have been medicated, including Gavin who will soon go to bed in order to sleep off his morning medications.   While I'm completely overwhelmed, I'm not doing too bad this morning.  Being overwhelmed is pretty much a default setting anymore and there are just some days that I seem to cope better. Today happens to be one of those…

This morning went pretty well but I think Emmett's getting sick. It's like a head cold/upper respiratory thing.  There's no fever, so there's still a chance it's just allergies.  Fingers crossed..  I didn't sleep well last night because I had too much in my mind and those worries played out in my dreams.  It's like there's no escaping any of this stuff, even while dreaming and that really sucks.  Neither Lizze or I felt like walking this morning but rather than give up and just quit before we even got started, we pushed ourselves to go for a short, brisk walk anyway.   It wasn't the best workout but I'm looking at it from the perspective of at least we're maintaining the habit.  At least we tried before we succumbed…

I don't know why but my mood has gone straight down the crapper. I'm feeling very overwhelmed by life and all it requires of me. Nothing terrible has happened today and yet my mood is terrible.   Not that any parenting is easy because but Autism parenting is truly in a league of its own.   I've found over the last 15 years that when it comes to special needs kids, there's always something to worry about or stress over. Maybe that sounds dramatic but I think most parents in similar circumstance, would agree.   I think that I'm at a point where everything is just getting to me.  I'm feeling tired all the time and if given the chance, I would sleep all day. Maybe not all day but…