I've been feeling very positive so far this year. We were able to get the house mostly caught up and more importantly, we're maintaining it. This is the first time I can honestly say this, since we've been on our own. Maybe that doesn't sound super impressive but I feel really good about it. Despite the positive, I'm struggling right now. My kids are struggling and I'm worried about them. I won't go into the details but Emmett is struggling more now than he ever has in his entire life. He wants me to pull him out of school and homeschool him. He's not sleeping well and when he does, it's filled with nightmares. His nightmares are really fucked up because he feels pain in his dreams and actually dies,…

I took today to focus on taking care of myself. While I didn't get a workout in, I did focus on destressing. The boys all had a good day, making my efforts a bit easier and I'm grateful for that. One of my goals for this year is to improve my diet. I love fruit but I have a hard time with green veggies, so I get around that by making smoothies. Unfortunately, my blender died yesterday. I put my smoothie together and when I went to blend it, the blender wouldn't turn on. Fortunately, it was under warranty through Best Buy and I was able to get it replaced. I had to get something different cause they discontinued what I'd been using. Anyway, Emmett and I did some research…