I'm starting this day at a deficit because I didn't sleep well at all. I've spoken about restless leg a few times in the past because it's a problem for me. My mom significantly suffers from restless leg, and I'm not sure if there's a genetic component to it. I don't know if any of my siblings deal with this, but I should probably ask. Anyway, last night was really bad for me. It's always seems to be my left leg and I don't really know how to describe it other than saying that it's so bad that cutting my leg off seems like a viable option. That sounds dramatic but if you've ever experienced the feeling of restless leg, you probably get it. Thankfully, I don't seem to deal…

I got my walk in bright and early, after a semi-decent nights sleep. I took some ZzzQuil before bed, and sometimes it takes forever to shake off in the morning. We have to make a trip to the dispensary this afternoon. It's an extremely expensive trip but it's a necessary one. Lizze hasn't been here in a couple of weeks because she uses it sparingly. While it is costly, it makes such a difference in her life. This is a must. Later on this afternoon, we have therapy with the kids. We also need to get Gavin's Clozapine refill today and that's seemingly like pulling teeth at this point. Every fucking week it's nightmare trying to get this prescription refilled. There's so much red tape that in every single year…

Gavin's blood work went great and even though they didn't have the color of wrap normally gets, he accepted purple. I think he views purple as a girls color and therefore accepting it is a pretty big step for Gavin. We've tried to explain that guys and girls can wear whatever colors they like. He's very simplistic in his views and that's not likely to change. 🙂👍 I ended up walking in the rain this morning after I finished with Gavin. It was actually significantly colder today than it was yesterday. We've been dealing with 110° F temps recently, and today it was in the low 60's and pouring down rain. A little bit ago, Emmett and I got home from picking up his birthday present. It took him forever…

I woke up this morning with every intention of going walking but for the third day in a row, mother nature has had other plans. The temps have dramatically cooled but now it's raining/storming and it will be for most of the morning. I do plan on trying again throughout the day, as there are breaks in the weather. Instead of going back to sleep, I decided to catch Gavin before he took his morning meds and get his blood work done. He was stressing out over it last night, and I figured he'd appreciate getting it done right away so he could take his meds, as well as his morning nap. I'm writing this as I sit in the parking lot and wait for Gavin to have his blood…

Lizze and I had some tense moments after the kids left. I think that we are both so overwhelmed by everything going on around us, and hiding that stress from the kids takes a toll. When they leave, we end up purging. Lizze and I don't fight per se, but we both vent about everything we've had penned up inside. Once the kids leave, we can more freely talk about the things that need to be talked about. There's nowhere in this house that allows Lizze and I to have a private conversation, without everyone else overhearing. Our house is pretty small and even talking in a very low voice, is loud enough to carry up the stairs to the second floor. There are many things that we need to…