My oldest with #Autism wandered off today and we couldn’t find him

Before I go any further, let me say that Gavin is safe. We were on our way to the dentist and Gavin started having bladder issues again. We had something that needed replace under warranty at Best Buy, so we opted to do that on the way out of town because Gavin needed the bathroom anyway. This has happened a million times before and this is what usually happens. I'll go do whatever needs done at customer service and Gavin goes straight to the bathroom. He knows exactly where it is and he's gone a few minutes before returning to my side. We worked up to this over a period of time and lots of practice.  There's never been an issue until today. I finished up at customer service and…

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The week of craziness begins today with another trip back to the dentist 

We are back in Fairlawn today.  This time it's for Elliott and Gavin's dental check up.  It's just a routine checkup and shouldn't be a big deal.   Elliott's a bundle of nerves and smothered in anxiety.   He's knows he's going tomorrow but he's not happy about it.  Frankly, he's doing much better than I was prepared for at this point.  He's not freaking out and that's a big step forward.   I know he's nervous and we'll probably see a lot more of that nervousness, rear up as we get closer to his appointment but I'm really proud of him for being as calm as he's been so far.   Gavin on the other hand, couldn't care less about going to the dentist. This kid has been through…

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The first was a fluke but the second gives me hope

For the second night in a row, Emmett has fallen asleep in his own bed. He struggled a little bit but Lizze walked him back upstairs and tucked him back in.   This is pretty big because I was excited about the first night but chalked it up to a fluke because I didn't want to get my hopes up.  Ha ing him fall asleep tonight in his own bed as well, has given me hope that we may be making progress here.   I have to give Lizze props because she's doing a fantastic job of working with him. Emmett's a kid who requires a great deal of patience Lizze really is such a good Mom and I'm so grateful to have her back.  In the morning, I'm gonna…

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Confessions: Do you ever feel like a parenting failure because I do

It's been a long weekend and I think it's taken its toll on me.  I can't seem to pull myself out of the funk I'm in.  I'm struggling a bit tonight because I'm feeling like a failure on many fronts. I realize that perhaps I'm taking a few blows on the depression front and that my plate is overflowing with things to worry about. I'm feeling pretty crappy right now and I wanted to share my thought process because maybe it can help someone else who's going through the same thing. When things get overwhelming, sometimes I can sorta turn on myself.  I focus on all the things I'm doing wrong or not doing good enough and it's very defeating. Tonight, I'm worried about everyday life stuff. I still haven't…

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What’s your experience with #Autism? 

Everyone knows my experience when it comes to Autism because you've been reading about it for eight or nine years now.   Since Autism is a human condition that varies from person to person, I would never assume to know your personal experience with Autism because I've not walked in your shoes.   Having said that, I would really like to learn a bit more about my readers. I'd love to know more about your personal experience with Autism. Are you a parent to someone with Autism? Are you Autistic yourself?  Thanks in advance for sharing anything you're comfortable with..  ☺  

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For the first time in forever…… 

Lizze and I ended our day, without having to move Emmett back to his own bed because he fell asleep in his own.  He came downstairs a couple times but ended up falling asleep in his bed tonight.   This marks the first time in forever, that he's been able to fall asleep in his own bed and I'm pretty stoked about this.   I will say that I'm afraid to check on him, for fear of him waking up... lol This is a pretty big step for him and I'm gonna praise the crap out of him in the morning...  ☺ 

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I fear Gavin’s starting to lose it and that’s not good

I wanted to talk about how Gavin is doing. Lizze and I have been talking about this today and we both agree that Gavin's not doing well. For starters, he's forgetting a great more than is typical for him. Things he would normally do really well, he's unable to complete. His threshold for frustration is very, very low as well. He's debriefed us on a few missions over the last few days and while he's definitely still in a psychotic break or episode, it's his dreams that are beginning to worry me. His dreams are centered around death or dying. The other night, he had a nightmare that my Mom died.  She died because someone had stabbed her in the throat with a pitch fork.  Gavin says that he woke…

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A little validation never hurt anyone

One of the things that I've found really frustrating along my Autism Parenting journey is a lack of validation. It used to be that when we would send our kids to their Grandparents for a little while, they would come home and we would be told how well they behaved.  I think most parents would take that as a compliment. In my case, I hated hearing that.  I know that probably sounds crazy so let me explain. First of all, I have amazing kids but they're unbelievably difficult to manage.  I struggle every single day to maintain my patience, sanity and my family's forward motion.  It's not easy.  It's not easy by a mile. There are times that I feel like such a horrible parent because I just couldn't keep…

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