It's pretty obvious that I've been thrown off since Monday's appointment with Gavin's psychiatrist. As a parent, it's so hard to just shake it off because it's dealing with the life of my child.   At the same time, life goes on and never slows down just to let me catch up.  I sorta have to grieve on the run because while I'm struggling to process the bad news, there are a million new things that must be dealt with and an infinite amount of things still piled up in the back burner.  Between the heartbreaking news about Gavin, living with Gavin's incessant over-sharing and everything else going on, I've just sorta crashed.  I'm struggling to remain positive. Hopeful that someone will think of something, that could help Gavin or…

When Lizze and I decided to put our family back together, there were a few things that we wanted to make sure we did.  Lizze and I don't have any major issues between us and the reasons for our separation didn't really have anything to do us. It was a combination of several things but that's not really the point.  One of the things that we wanted to do differently this time around was to be more cognizant of our own needs and make sure we take better care of ourselves and each other.   It's so easy to get wrapped up in taking care of all the kids, that we fail to take care of ourselves.  Marriage counseling is being employed as a means of gaining new tools to…

I didn't sleep well last night again. There's just too much to worry about and while I try not to worry about things I have no control over, when it comes to my family, that's so much easier said than done.   Thank God for Emmett's good mood this morning because he woke up and got dressed, including his shoes and socks before even coming downstairs.   He woke up around 3am from what I gathered was a nightmare. He climbed into bed and snuggled up to me. I'm not gonna lie, I'm a suckered for snuggling with my kids. He was scared and so pushing him back to his room wouldn't have gone over well.  I ended up eventually moving to the couch and letting Emmett sleep in my…