I’m going to open up a little about my life after #divorce

The weekend got off to a rough start but I'm feeling so much better. The kids don't have school today so everything is kinda thrown off as a result. It actually feels like a Sunday. I keep getting work emails that never come on the weekends and I have to keep reminding myself that it's Monday. Yesterday was my nieces first birthday and since everyone is vaccinated, we were able to get together and celebrate. It was so nice and I really liked visiting with everyone. The boys love playing with their little cousins and it helps me to see that life is moving forward. Speaking of moving foward, I went on a date yesterday evening, and I had a nice time. It was super simple and we just met…

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I was in the emergency room yesterday and ended up at the @ClevelandClinic

Yesterday was one of those days I'd like to avoid going forward. If you don't follow me on Facebook, then you're probably out of the loop. You can find my Facebook profile linked at the top of the page. Just sayin'..... Wednesday I began experiencing a sore throat. Not a huge deal but it was getting worse. I woke up about 3 am on Friday morning and took some motrin for the pain. It felt like a pill got stuck in my throat. When I woke up in the morning, I felt like I was choking and it scared the shit out of me. I was supposed to get the kids to Akron Children's for the first COVID shot at 10 am. I couldn't talk without feeling like I was…

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We took a much needed #mentalhealth day

Yesterday was amazing. It was also exhausting because I drove for over 5 hours but it was amazing nonetheless. As I mentioned in my last post, the boys had a very rough Tuesday night therapy session. While I'm not going to dive into the specifics of that, all that matters for context is that it was extremely emotional for them. I had decided to give all of us a mental health day and so I drove them out to Cook Forest State Park, near Clarion PA. It's about a 2.5 hour drive from our house but my parents were there and we wanted to visit them for a little while. The drive wasn't that bad and it was actually the first road trip we've taken in the new car. I…

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It’s been emotionally overwhelming day for my kids

Today has been really upsetting and emotionally overwhelming for the boys. As a an adult, I found myself overwhelmed also, so I can only imagine how the boys feel. I was texting with a friend this evening and that helped me quite a bit actually because it was a pleasant distraction from everything that was going on. I realized the boys both needed and deserved a distraction of their own. I wanted to be able to help the boys to decompress and move forward so we had an impromptu bonfire tonight. We just cooked hotdogs but they were surprised and really excited to do that. I also decided to move some meetings around and give all of us a much needed a mental health day. I'm taking the kids to…

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It’s Okay To Not Be Okay

I wanted to take a minute and talk about my personal war with depression. I've been very open and honest about this but I've not updated you guys on how I'm doing in a little while. I feel like it's been forever, actually. First of all, I want to say that yes, I still struggle with depression. Barring some breakthrough in science and medicine, I think depression will be around forever. That being said, I manage my depression quite well and for the most part, it doesn't play a prominent role in my life. If it's not managed well or I go through a very difficult time, the balance I've worked very hard to establish, can be thrown off. When that happens, I can struggle a bit. I've actually been…

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Alone Time

So the boys are at their mom and grandparents house for the night and I've had majority of the day to myself. I took the kids out to get their mom and grandmother something for Mother's Day. I'm really glad the kids got to go over for the holiday. Lizze and I will never be best friends but regardless, she will always be the mother of my children. That commands a certain level of respect that transcends things like divorce, disagreements, and pretty much anything else that life can hurl at us. I've said this a million times but you don't have to like or even be friends with your kids other parent, but you do need get along, and be a team, devoted to raising good humans. The kids…

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How did Fergus’s first trip to the vet go?

I got lost in the day yesterday and forgot to update everyone in how Fergus's appointment went. This will be super quick because there's not much to tell. Basically, he's about 6 months old and not really underweight but needs to eat more. We're bumping him up to at least 2 cups of puppy chow for the next few months. Then we switch to adult food. He's clear of heartworms and got all his needed shots. The only problem is that he has a UTI. It's not like super bad but it's bad enough. We had no idea but he's now on antibiotics to clear that up. Apparently, we have to keep that area groomed in order to prevent future occurrences. I'm not sure how we're supposed to know if…

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Someone went to the vet today

I woke up this morning already exhausted because I was up until 4am. Do you ever get that feeling that something is stuck in your esophagus after swallowing pills? That happened to me last night and I was quite uncomfortable and couldn't sleep. I started watching a show on Amazon Prime and a few hours later, I was finally able to fall asleep. Fergus goes to the vet this afternoon. I was able to get his records this morning, so hopefully, it won't be as expensive because we don't have to completely start over. The only other thing I have today is a meeting around dinner time. I was invited to do something that should help further grow the podcast. I'm kind of excited because this has potential to be…

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