I had a rough night. Sleep was intermittent at best and that's probably because the burrito I ate for dinner wasn't sitting well. Since I've been losing weight, I don't eat nearly as much as I used to. In the past, I could eat a giant burrito and not think about it. I don't eat them very often but in the couple times I have in the last few months, I've been unable to finish it. I suppose that's a good thing.. ☺ Anyway, I'm definitely looking to walk today and burn off some of yesterday's bad choices. I have zero desire to do so but that's not a good enough reason to avoid it. I'm not sure when the boys will be back but it's probably best if I…

The boys have left to spend the night with their grandparent's. That's a pretty awesome thing because Lizze and I are feeling burnt-out. I was thinking that we would go do something but Lizze is in too much pain to really go anywhere. Even if she could, I'm not sure what we would do. Nothing really sounds super exciting and I'm not feeling up to walking today. There is a Chipotle gift card burning a hole in my pocket. Maybe we'll grab some dinner and shut ourselves in for the night. The bottomline is that we have time to ourselves. That doesn't happen very often and I want to make the most out of it cause we need to recharge our batteries while they're gone.

When you're an Autism family, you have to expect that things will rarely go as planned. It's simply the reality of the life we've been blessed with. Today was no exception to that rule but while it was frustrating at times, it was the perfect 40th birthday. All the chaos from today is just the way our life is. I lost track of the meltdowns and other Autism related challenges. If my birthday were what most people would consider to be perfect, it simply wouldn't be my life and while my life isn't easy, I'm quite fond of it. I'm super grateful for today and I'm doing much better emotionally than I thought I would. We had pizza while watching a new show called Magic for Humans on Netflix for…

Well, today isn't going quite as planned but nothing in our life ever rally does and that's okay. The boys got off to school okay but I was too tired to go walking. Emmett had another nightmare and I ended up on the couch, barely getting any sleep. My Mom was going to hangout with Gavin, so Lizze and I could go to Chipotle for lunch but Lizze isn't feeling well. Even if she was, Gavin's not in a good place today and sending him anywhere would be irresponsible for a couple of reasons. He's being very difficult and has been having meltdowns since he finished his IVIG infusion. The poor kid is really stressed out and we're beating our heads into the wall trying to understand why. Lizze is…

The moment I've been dreading has arrived. I'm 40 years old. I've now been alive for four decades. I'm not sure how I feel about this but at the same time, it doesn't appear to be the end of the world either. I thought it might be interesting see how this Autism Dad, celebrates his birthday. It's different than most but different isn't always a bad thing. We don't really have anything crazy planned and I'm okay with that. All I really wanted to do was get a Chipotle burrito but I promised Emmett we would do Hungry Howies pizza instead. He has a coupon for a free personal pizza he hasn't been able to use yet and he was really upset about that the other day. I promised him…