Mainstream Anxiety

It's been a minute because my life has been a little overwhelming lately. I'm feeling incredibly anxious tonight, and I thought it might be helpful to write for a bit before I try to get some sleep. There's a few things going on right now that have me on edge, and I'm going to go into a few of them. This isn't going to be the smoothest article I've written, and it's not meant to be. I'm looking to purge and walk away from some of this shit I'm struggling with. The biggest thing keeping me awake tonight is that Elliott starts at a new high school in the morning. It's been an emotionally exhausting couple of months for Elliott and me. Elliott has been handling everything like a champ,…

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I swear to God it just never ends

Today is definitely not going as planned. I was supposed to take Emmett to school, hit the gym, and then bury myself in post production until it was time for another interview after lunch. Unfortunately, it didn't end up that way and instead, I'm at Aultman North waiting on xrays of Emmett's wrist. It just never ends. This is the 3rd time this year that he's needed xrays. He got hurt at recess again, a few days ago. He fell, hurting his right wrist and the pain is getting worse. I don't think it's broken but I do think he sprained it. I also know that I could be wrong. When he first hurt it, I told him that if he doesn't feel better in a couple days, we'll get…

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I’m looking forward to another week of personal growth

I think Emmett's going to hang out with his mom today. It's an off weekend for visits but she's trying to give each of the kids some one on one time. They seem to really enjoy it and that's all I need to know. I was up until almost 2am producing tomorrow's podcast release and I'm really proud of the final product. Things are really starting to fall into place with the business and opportunities keep popping up that I can't believe are purposely being aimed at me. I'm not sure what I did to deserve these opportunities but you better believe I'll humbly be taking full advantage of them. If you've been a long time reader, you might remember that I've talked about my dream of turning everything I'm…

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It’s been a rough week on multiple levels

So, it's been a challenging week for me on a number of levels. I'm emotionally drained from everything going on with my kids. We've also had quite a few appointments this week and I had a number of meetings crammed in between. Physical therapy for Emmett was the last appointment of the week. The kids are with their mom for the weekend and I'm sitting in bed writing this before I call it a night. I have zero plans for this weekend but that's okay. The down time will probably do me some good. I'm not going to work on the house, even though I should. I'm going to sleep in and probably spend all day in my pajamas. After the kids left, I spent the afternoon writing ad copies.…

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What have we come to when kids encourage other kids to kill themselves?

I wish I could go into the details of just how absolutely overloaded I am right now or what I'm feeling. I'm trying to wind down but it's not working very well. I'm trying hard to find a balance here that allows me to share what I think is important without crossing a line. The problem is that I can't really see the line anymore and there a part of me that literally has zero shits left to give. At the moment, I'm dealing with a child who's being bullied and its escalated to social media. It's reached a level where he's fucking being told to kill himself. I'm so over kids being assholes and it's taking everything thing I have not to make some very bad decisions right now.…

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It doesn’t have to be perfect

I've totally been dragging today. I didn't really accomplish anything and I'm okay with that. We're going to call it a mental health day. Elliott's been having a rough time and I've been up with him the last couple of nights. I definitely have a nap calling my name after I get some work done. I'm waiting on more paint before finishing the living room and I'm looking at Saturday before I can get started again. Aside from the first floor being torn apart, it's given me extra time to get caught up at work. The podcast production side of things is getting busy, and is time consuming. I've learned so much since starting this new venture and I've been able to connect with so many amazing people. I've got…

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I made so much progress today

Major progress was made today. I'm laying in bed, about to call it a night, and feeling accomplished. I'm currently managing three projects for work and I released one of them today. You can find it at listen.theautismdad.com. I encourage you to take a listen, it's only about 30 minutes long and the message is important. I'm also starting at least 3 more projects for work this week. They just seem to keep coming in and that's not a bad problem to have, at least as far as problems go. It's been a long, but productive day for me. My dad came over after work and helped me tackle the walls. We got the first coat up and it looks really good. It's a big difference but some of the…

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