I'm not feeling super positive tonight folks. Being a parent to kids with Autism and/or Special Needs is fucking hard. It's incredibly rewarding and worth every effort that goes into it, but it's fucking challenging in ways that are simply impossible to understand unless you've lived it. Navigating this life would be challenging in a vacuum but unfortunately, life doesn't exist in a vacuum. Life is full of shit that makes it even more complicated than it already is. Today has been one of those days where there was so much shit going on in my life, that I honestly questioned if I was strong enough to keep moving forward. My kids are struggling and when they're struggling, I'm hyper-vigilant. I'm so fucking stressed out right now that my chest…

I have therapy this afternoon and I'm looking forward to going. It's tough for me to tell if it's actually working or not but I'm learning some important things along the way. The biggest issue in my life right now is everything surrounding my divorce. That includes all the things I'm personally learning to accept, as well as everything the kids are going through. Divorce makes everything more complicated and that makes an already challenging situation, more difficult to manage. This will be my 4th or 5th session, I can't remember. I like my therapist because she challenges me to think differently. It doesn't really change things but it does help me to better accept the things outside of my control. I know that there's no going back and at…