So I have the pleasure of sharing some of Emmett's artwork from today. ☺ The balloon is something he did in art class. Pac-Man was a coloring page he printed out before going to school this morning. 😀
Gavin and I have had a pretty good day. I'm really trying to shake off the bad news about his diagnosis and focus on some of the more positive aspects of today. After all the chaos from this mornings appointments, Gavin and I did some grocery shopping and filled our water jugs. He was a really big help and afterwards, we had lunch. At the moment, we're just sorta chilling out in the car waiting to pick up the boys from school. It's a beautiful day and while it's a tiny bit chilly, the sun is shining and I can pretend everything is okay. 😊
My 10 year journey with Gavin comes to a heartbreaking conclusion today
I woke up on time today and let the boys sleep while I got everything read for them to begin their day. I walked downstairs to find that one of the cats had vomited all over my laptop. It leaked into the vents and some of the ports. I wasn't thrilled to see this but someday I will look back on this and laugh.
For the last month or so, Emmett's really been struggling in the sleep department. To be more specific, he's struggling to actually fall asleep. He's back to where he was right after him Mom left. Not sure what happened with him but we lost a shit ton of progress in the sleep department in the last month or so. He won't fall asleep unless he's glued to me. We worked through this once already, I'm thinking we can absolutely do it again. ☺
I don't know if you remember but my calendar got messed up and has sorta left me flying blind as I'm piecing it back together. Apparently, this morning is going to be one of those double booked kinda days. I am supposed to have Maggie at the vets office around 9:30 AM to get her stitches removed. Unfortunately, I also have to have both Gavin and Elliott at Dr. Reynolds office at the very same time. Both boys are supposed to see different people at the exact same time. I'm not sure how I'm going to pull this off just yet but I something has to be rescheduled..
I've been trying to find my voice, ever since my wife left last year. In many ways, life has become much easier but at the same time, it's more complicated than it used to be. I don't share everything that's going in inside my head like I used to because not everything is fit for public consumption anymore. There's a large, untalked about part of my life that impacts who I am and how I'm doing. I choose not to share because it's best to keep the boys in the dark on this stuff and should they ever happen upon this blog before a certain age, it would not be good for them. Frankly, it's really difficult to find my voice anymore. It's not that I don't have anything to…
We've had a really great afternoon today. We celebrated my Dad's birthday with the family and had dinner. The boys got to play with their cousin and I got to just relax and do nothing for a little while. We got home a little but ago and everyone's just sorta winding down and having a quiet evening at home before going to bed. It's a short week at school this week so schedules are going to be off a little bit. I'm hoping to get everyone in bed early and maybe catchup on a few shows before calling it a night myself. . ☺