Today’s going to be a good day

The last couple of days have been rough for me. I experience with emotions is very intense. That's not necessarily a bad thing but it can be overwhelming. I've always been that way but as I've aged, it's become easier to manage. Not perfect mind you, but manageable. When I get like this, I can start drowning in what feels like a tsunami of feelings, fear, and pervasive thinking. I always thought that was normal but as I'm learning more about myself, I'm understanding it's very much an ADHD thing. It's so interesting to step back and look at things because I'm able to recognize patterns in my behavior that make much more sense now. Once I recognize the problem, I can work on addressing it. The hardest part for…

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It’s Okay To Not Be Okay

I wanted to take a minute and talk about my personal war with depression. I've been very open and honest about this but I've not updated you guys on how I'm doing in a little while. I feel like it's been forever, actually. First of all, I want to say that yes, I still struggle with depression. Barring some breakthrough in science and medicine, I think depression will be around forever. That being said, I manage my depression quite well and for the most part, it doesn't play a prominent role in my life. If it's not managed well or I go through a very difficult time, the balance I've worked very hard to establish, can be thrown off. When that happens, I can struggle a bit. I've actually been…

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Depression Confession: Major progress has been made

Today begins phase 2 of my withdrawal from Paxil. I'm officially on half on my original dose and that's progress. The first two weeks were absolutely horrible. It was like the worst case of the flu I've ever experienced. That lasted about a week and a half. After that misery was over the insomnia began. My experience for the last week or so has been much, much better. The first two and a half weeks sucked but it definitely got better. For the next four weeks, I'll be taking 20 mg/day. That's 20 mg/day less than I've been taking for the last few years. More likely than not, therr will be more unpleasant withdrawal symptoms and I suspect it may follow the original pattern. I know how ridiculous it sounds…

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MAJOR UPDATE: Here’s what’s going on with my wife

There's a part of me that's still getting used to my wife and I being back together, in regards to my writing anyway. I don't often include her in my writing because I got so used to avoiding any mentions while we were separated for almost two years. This is a problem, and I mean to address that moving forward. Lizze plays a vital role in our daily life, and there are things that should be talked about. For the more personal stuff, I will refer you to her blog, www.themamaspace.com. She shares personal insights about herself and her struggle. I'll be touching on some of the basics, though. I want to get things started by playing a little bit of catch up. You may already know that Lizze struggles…

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