Trying to set a positive example for my kids

It's been a pretty quiet day. I'm moving a bit slower today because I hurt in places I didn't even know I had. I workout almost every day and 70 minutes of Yoga has made me question everything I've been doing. LOL I cranked my mattress up to 117°F, used it like a full body heating pad, and was able to get a ton of work done this afternoon. I picked up a couple of new clients and that should prove to be a good thing. The original plan for the day was to take the kids hiking but it rained all afternoon. We were going to pick my mom up and take her with us but now we're going to shoot for later this week, assuming the weather cooperates.…

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Life is far too short

It's been a great day so far. Gavin is out spending time with my Mom and the boys are doing awesome. I've been working for most of the day and that's gone amazingly well. I had two meetings today and both went really well. I'm exploring a new partnership having to do with men's health and that looks to be a really good business opportunity. At the same time, I'm all about raising awareness for things and men's health is important. The house has been quiet with Gavin gone and it's kinda like a look at what life might be like when he moves out on his own. He's having a great time with his grandma and while I'm not sure what they're doing, I am absolutely certain that I'll…

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How I’ve grown and changed over the last 2 years

I wanted to talk a little bit about my personal growth journey. I've been very open about this newer foray into learning more about myself, growing into a better version of me, as well as finding peace, and happiness. I turned 40 a couples of years back, lost my last remaining grandparents, went through a divorce, and became a single parent with a shit load of responsibilities that can sometimes be overwhelming. If there was ever a time for self-reflection and personal inventory, this was it. What I haven't done recently is talk about the progress I've made. I don't usually pat myself on the back but sometimes it's important to acknowledge the progress I've made and give myself a little credit for all my hard work. When I first…

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The power of self-care

Guys, I'm feeling really good. I've been hitting the gym almost every morning and I'm so proud of myself for sticking to it. I thought it was going to be hard to get back into it after suffering a major back injury and stepping away for so long. Turns out I was hooked after my first time back. It's kinda like riding a bike. I do have an amazing workout partner and that certainly helps to be able to both support and encourage each other. It's pretty awesome actually. This morning I ended up working out alone but I still showed up and still gave it my all. I'm not gonna lie, I feel pretty fucking amazing and I'm finding myself becoming more comfortable in my own skin. I've come…

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Helping my kids remain open to positive change and willing to embrace it, even after they’ve been hurt

It's been an incredibly emotional evening, especially for the kids. I had to make a difficult decision tonight, but it was the right one. I'm completely physically, and emotionally exhausted now. The kids are very upset but I'm working to help them remain open to positive change, and embrace it, even after they've been hurt. The boys are doing okay at this point. Emmett's currently in his own bed, which is amazing, and with any luck, he will remain there. Gavin's already asleep and Elliott won't be too far behind. As I was writing this, Emmett popped his head in to inform me that he wants to do in-person learning again in the morning, which is awesome. Although, I just remembered that his clothes are still in the washer. I'll…

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We took a much needed #mentalhealth day

Yesterday was amazing. It was also exhausting because I drove for over 5 hours but it was amazing nonetheless. As I mentioned in my last post, the boys had a very rough Tuesday night therapy session. While I'm not going to dive into the specifics of that, all that matters for context is that it was extremely emotional for them. I had decided to give all of us a mental health day and so I drove them out to Cook Forest State Park, near Clarion PA. It's about a 2.5 hour drive from our house but my parents were there and we wanted to visit them for a little while. The drive wasn't that bad and it was actually the first road trip we've taken in the new car. I…

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It’s been emotionally overwhelming day for my kids

Today has been really upsetting and emotionally overwhelming for the boys. As a an adult, I found myself overwhelmed also, so I can only imagine how the boys feel. I was texting with a friend this evening and that helped me quite a bit actually because it was a pleasant distraction from everything that was going on. I realized the boys both needed and deserved a distraction of their own. I wanted to be able to help the boys to decompress and move forward so we had an impromptu bonfire tonight. We just cooked hotdogs but they were surprised and really excited to do that. I also decided to move some meetings around and give all of us a much needed a mental health day. I'm taking the kids to…

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It’s Okay To Not Be Okay

I wanted to take a minute and talk about my personal war with depression. I've been very open and honest about this but I've not updated you guys on how I'm doing in a little while. I feel like it's been forever, actually. First of all, I want to say that yes, I still struggle with depression. Barring some breakthrough in science and medicine, I think depression will be around forever. That being said, I manage my depression quite well and for the most part, it doesn't play a prominent role in my life. If it's not managed well or I go through a very difficult time, the balance I've worked very hard to establish, can be thrown off. When that happens, I can struggle a bit. I've actually been…

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