Read more about the article Third times a charm
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Third times a charm

The last couple of days have been rather busy for me. I've been dealing with side effects from my covid booster. Nothing major. In fact, it's been easier this time around but I'm getting hit with fatigue. I'm tired all the time and sleeping doesn't really make it better. Again, it's better than COVID and I'm grateful to have access to such an effective vaccine. I took Gavin to get his booster this morning. He did great and so far, his only issue is a sore arm. I do expect him to be under the weather for the next day or two but maybe he won't experience any side effects and I'd be more than okay if that were the case. Emmett's been having a difficult couple of days so…

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Emerging from darker times

I wanted to pop in and let you know I'm still breathing. It's been a minute but it's not because something is wrong. Quite the opposite actually. The boys are doing great and Gavin is continuing down the path to independence. I'm so proud of everyone because we've emerged from such a dark time in our lives, and we're living our best lives. As for me, I'm doing great as well. I've come such a long way and while I'm tired, I absolutely love my life. I have some amazing opportunities with work, and I'm even planning a trip for next year. I've reinvested in balancing my public and private life, which is why I don't share everything that's going on. I'm in a very healthy, rewarding relationship, and I…

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Read more about the article Why I still wear a mask, even though I’m fully #vaccinated
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Why I still wear a mask, even though I’m fully #vaccinated

I wanted to take a second and put this out there because I truly believe that it's really important. Everyone in my immediate family (myself and the boys) are fully vaccinated for COVID. We're in pretty good shape in my house and I'm so incredibly grateful for that. That being said, not everyone is so lucky. Anyone under the age of twelve, cannot currently receive the COVID vaccine. It's coming soon but all these kids are still at risk until then. I even wear a mask at the gym, which is not fun at all, especially with a filtered mask. I made the decision to do that and I will continue to do so because there are people in my life who cannot yet receive the vaccine. The best way…

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Read more about the article Moving forward
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Moving forward

It's been a pretty good day. We got off to a rough start with the boys and school but everything worked out. I was finally able to get a tree service out to gut the back of my property. I've been trying for months to get someone out and it's nearly impossible right now because of labor shortages. They came out first thing in the morning and did a great job. I'd like to have them come back and deal with a few other things but it will probably have to wait until the spring. I asked them today and they said they appointments are being scheduled almost four months in advance. It's kinda crazy but COVID has impacted so many things. At the end of the day, I got…

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Poor kid is having an anxiety attack

Emmett woke up this morning and doesn't feel well. He's not sick, at least not physically sick. Emmett is a child who deals with anxiety and it can be debilitating at times. When he gets anxious, it tends to manifest physically, usually as a stomach ache. He's not physically ill but is experiencing physical symptoms. Make sense? Anyway, he's really stressed out over COVID and going to school in a pandemic. He's seeing his friends and teachers become infected. Thankfully, to my knowledge, everyone has recovered. Also, Emmett is fully vaccinated. The risk to him is minimal but not zero. He understands that but it's the not zero part that makes him anxious. He's feeling afraid for himself, his family, and everyone else. It's very clear to him that there…

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Little moments of clarity

Woke up today feeling pretty good and eager to go for a walk. I was up long before everyone else and I'm sitting in my living room, enjoying the quiet. I've been preaching about self-care for years because it's so vitally important. I try to focus on self-care in my own life on a daily basis. There are times however, where I experience these moments of clarity, and today was one of those moments. It's not that I don't recognize or appreciate the importance of self-care, but today as I sat on my couch, in total silence, I was very much in the moment. The peace and quiet was captivating. I appreciated being able to hear my own thoughts, without all the usual distraction. It was a fantastic way to…

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I get overwhelmed sometimes

There are times when I feel like a total failure. I've talked about before and I'm sure I'll be talking about it again in the future. I've been fighting this overwhelming feeling of being a failure recently. I know that I do the best I can but sometimes it's just not enough. I feel like I'm drowning in that feeling right now. I've been interviewed many times over the years and I'm always asked about what I find most difficult about being a special needs parent. My answer is always the same and it goes like this. One of the hardest things for me is that I wake up every single morning knowing that even on my very best day, I'm not enough. That sounds super depressing and frankly, it…

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The Truth is I’m Not Okay

I swear to God it feels like I’m always apologizing for not writing enough. I don’t know why I feel the need to do that but clearly I do. I guess that I feel as though I’m letting people down when I don’t write or share. That’s just a weird thing I put on myself though. If I don’t write for a period of time, I start getting messages from people checking up on me. Sometimes that's how I end up realizing that it’s been awhile. Anyway, because I’m me and feel the need. I’m sorry it’s been so long since we’ve talked. I'm just going to run with this but truthfully, my heads a mess and I'm not sure what direction this is going to take. Usually there’s a…

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