I’m freaked out and overwhelmed after meeting with my doctor today

I just got home from my doctor appointment and I'm feeling really overwhelmed. My over all cholesterol level went up quite a bit. I went from roughly 150 to 217 since my last check earlier this year. My LDL went from 70 to 135 and that's definitely not good. My triglycerides are also up as well my blood pressure. None of this is catastrophic but it's definitely not a good thing and I don't feel good about it. There several factors here that are likely behind this. StressDepression Less exercisePoor choices The biggest contributor to this is likely stress. Stress is a huge problem in my life. This has been a particularly rough year with the loss of my grandparents and it got exponentially worse when I became a single…

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If I had hair, I’d be pulling it out

I'm already stressed out about my doctor's appointment this morning and the kids have been at each other's throats since waking up. That's just adding to the stress. I don't know what's going on with the kids today but they're a handful and that's saying something. While I'm frustrated, I'm so proud and grateful that both went to school without any resistance. That makes life so easier. I have a few appointments today that I would have to miss if anyone came home or didn't go in the first place. For right now, I just want to get though this first appointment and move on to the next.

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Elliott received a HUGE surprise from @FractureMe

A little while ago, I had shared a picture that Elliott took and it garnered a great deal of attention on Twittee. I've embedded the tweet below. My 13 y/o son took this picture today with his @OnePlus_USA #OnePlus7Pro. I'm so proud of him.. ☺ ♥ Please leave some positive feedback and I'll make sure he sees it. I'm encouraging him to keep moving forward and foster his talent. #Autism #SundayMotivation@yashar pic.twitter.com/TZOkhsB4mZ— Rob Gorski (@The_Autism_Dad) September 29, 2019 Anyway, my friends at Fracture noticed and wanted to do something really nice for Elliott to encourage and foster his love of photography. They wanted to provide his first professional print. The print finally arrived yesterday and well, look for yourself. It's AMAZING.. ☺ It's printed directly on glass and it's beautiful.…

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I’m really worried about tomorrow

I'm gonna be super honest and tell you that I'm freaked out about tomorrow. In the morning, I see my doctor. I'm a month or so late for my six month checkup. I received a call last week and my doctor is concerned about my labs. All I can think of is that it's been a very stressful year and it's taken a toll on my body. I don't know that anything is catastrophic but I'm definitely moving in the wrong direction. They nurse said they weren't terrible but they bad enough that they wanted to see me sooner than later. Over the last few years, I've been working very hard to get my numbers back in line and I had done so. Now it sounds like I've lost progress…

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A BIG step in the right direction

For the first time in awhile, I'm parked at the school and waiting for both of the boys to be dismissed. I'm so proud of them. I know it's not easy right now and school is difficult but we have a find a way thorough this dark time in our lives and journey towards a better day. I feel like today was a step in the right direction. We may still face difficulty in this area going forward but for today, they did amazing. So proud of you boys.. ☺ ♥

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We’re kicking ass today

After the chaotic morning, we recovered nicely and pretty much kicked ass. The chaos was caused by things I forgot to do last night before I went to bed and it had nothing to do with the kids. I'm glad to share that both boys went to school today, without any problems. Emmett's still in pain and Elliott is still struggling but both took on today with a positive attitude and will hopefully have a great day. Truthfully, I'd be happy with a decent or survivable day at this point. Both of the boys hopped out of the car with a smile on their face and that's so good to see. I'm not saying that today is going to be easy but I think they're going to kick Mondays ass..…

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No Harm No Foul

I totally dropped the ball last night and didn't realize it until this morning. As a result, it's been pretty chaotic. I went to bed fairly early last night because I was exhausted. As I was laying in bed, I couldn't shake the feeling that I was forgetting something, but couldn't figure out what that something was. As I was getting everyone moving this morning, I remembered what I was supposed to do. I forgot to make fresh pepperoni rolls for the boys school lunch and I also forgot to do Elliott's laundry. I can't believe I forgot to get these things done before I went to bed. I suppose that's what exhaustion can lead to. Thankfully, I had time to bake the pepperoni rolls and now I'm just waiting…

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The struggle is real but it’s not all bad

There are a few things to talk about before I call it a night. Some are positive and others, not so much. I will begin with the more unpleasant stuff because I'd like to end on a positive note. Part of the reason I haven't written much this weekend is because I'm really focusing on the kids and they're struggling quite a bit. I always focus on the kids but Elliott, in particular, has been very, very upset for the last day or so. I'm trying to give him some space while still helping him to work through some of this. Unfortunately, the best I can do is listen, help him to feel validated because, in many ways, he's not wrong. I also help him work on ways of dealing…

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