Strange new symptoms 

Gavin's been complaining of headaches almost every night after going to bed. Last night was no exception and I haven't a clue what's behind this.  None of his medications have changed in months, and I know he's plenty hydrated. Those are the first things we thought of when these headaches began occurring with more and more frequency.  We also looked at allergies as well but they appear to be managed.  Something else we have to consider is whether or not Gavin is experiencing a headache, or if something else is causing him discomfort and he's labeled it a headache.  Gavin is not a reliable source of information about his own body. He struggles with describing how he's feeling and often does so in ways that make no sense or can…

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Why I’m sticking close to home today

I've given up on sleep for now. It's simply not going to happen, and that's okay. Emmett woke up about 5:30 AM, and we've been hanging out. We spent some time watching cartoons, and I helped him find something to eat because his mouth is getting sores again. 🙁  I doubt we're going to go anywhere today. Playing things close to home sounds like a good way to spend the day.  Before the internet went out, I recorded some on demand movies, and perhaps we can watch them today.  It's pretty crazy because everyone but Emmett and myself is still sleeping. Gavin's always up by now but he's still sound asleep On a completely unrelated note, I somehow messed up my left knee pretty bad. I've no idea what I…

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No sleep for the exhausted 

I guess I'm not going to be sleeping tonight. It's almost 4:30 Am, and I'm still not able to fall asleep. I'm exhausted but my brain won't shut off so I can drift off.  This is what happens when I'm this stressed out.  It would be super awesome if I could get a nap at some point, but as for sleeping tonight, it's not in the cards. 🙁  There should be a universal rule that when you're this exhausted, sleep shouldn't be this elusive. 

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No one is harder on me than me

There are a million and one things that could easily be considered one of the toughest parts about Autism Parenting. Occasionally, one of these toughest parts makes its way to the front of the line and weighs heavy. This is the kind of thing that keeps me awake at night because it's too abstract to really process and completely intangible. I thought I would share what I'm currently struggling with because I want something positive to come from my journey. Maybe you can relate. Maybe you can't. My hope is that if you can, you realize that you aren't alone. As a parent to three boys with Autism, I'm my own toughest critic. I hear people's thoughts and/or opinions of my abilities as a parent all the time. Some people…

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Things didn’t go as planned

Today didn't go quite as we had planned, but that's okay. We were able to take care of my parent's dog, but we were unable to make it to the park. The garden center was closed for what looked like a wedding reception or something.  The boys were disappointed but we managed to redirect their attention to dinner. Lizze went to bed for a few hours, and I hung out with the boys. They ended up watching a really old Ben 10 movie. It was live action, and a little weird, but the kids liked it.  Around 8 PM, Lizze put the boys to bed and we watched some TV for a little bit.  I'm feeling somewhat stressed out tonight, and I think I want to climb into bed early.…

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It’s easy to lose sight of the positive

The boys are struggling a bit today. Their routine has been thrown off, and they don't like it. Emmett especially, is on edge. Elliott is hyper, and Gavin's been spending time fighting bad guys with his team of super heros (also known as Schizophrenic hallucinations).  Lizze is not having a good day, but I'm doing okay myself. Truthfully, I'm frustrated because we're in the position we're in. At the same time, I'm grateful that it's only the internet, and not a major utility. This could always be worse.  We have a roof over our head, food in the kitchen, water, natural gas, electricity, and everyone is as healthy as can be expected. These are all things to be grateful for. It's easy to lose sight of these things, when you're…

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My goal for today

My parents are out of town today, and we are going over to take care of their dog. While we're there, I'll be able to get some work done, and the boys will be able to play their tablets for a bit.  The idea here is to let the afternoon go on long enough that the sun isn't as strong, and then we will go to the park.  When we're done, I want to try and have a nice, quiet afternoon. 

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They’ve noticed our Internet is gone

It's been a tough day thus far. The boys are really stressed out over the loss of internet. The Internet is a requirement for much of their daily routine.  Emmett and Gavin both live on YouTube, while Elliott streams his music.  Apparently, I never set our Xbox as the home Xbox, so games can be played offline. All of our games are digital downloads, so that was a necessary step, and I can't fix it without the internet.  On the positive side, the boys have decided they want to clean their room, so they can bring the ferrets upstairs to play with. Hopefully, this motivation lasts until they've made progress in their room. ☺ 

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