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Depression Confessions: 2 weeks into withdrawaling from #Paxil

Depression Confessions exists to help facilitate an open and honest about how depression impacts my life. Depression is different for everyone but there are still many common threads and we shouldn't be afraid to talk about it. I've been talking about my ongoing war with depression for many years now and it's a liberating experience. I encourage everyone to be open and honest with the people in your lives about how depression is impacting you. Silence and shame are two of depressions greatest allies. I'm writing today to update you on how my journey to withdrawal from antidepressants is going. I've been on Paxil and Wellbutrin for many, many years now but it was time to come off the meds and see where I'm at. This was a big decision…

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December 31, 2017

My thoughts

Guess who’s got the night off

The boys are at their Grandparents house and that means we're childless for the night. Lizze is not feeling well and so she's sleeping. I was able to get some grocery shopping done and now I'm settling in to watch the Blade Runner movies. I've never seen them and I'm pretty sure Lizze wouldn't be interested, so this works out. Right now, it's just me, the dogs, some french bread pizza and streaming the Blade Runner movies via Chromecast to the Xbox. I'm feeling good and look forward to a quiet evening.

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December 30, 2017

Confessions / Depression Management / Medications / My thoughts

Withdrawaling from #Paxil is causing new problem

This whole withdrawaling from Paxil has been a really difficult journey thus far. The first week of tapering down felt like the worst case of the flu I've ever had. It lasted about a week but has since subsided. I thought I was in the clear until the next phase starts in a few weeks. Unfortunately, that has proven not to be true. While I'm not sick anymore, I'm dealing with really bad insomnia instead. To be completely honest, I'm not sure which is worse, feeling like shit or not sleeping. The insomnia began shortly after the nausea, body aches and headaches ended. I'm really struggling to get any sleep at night. I've tried over the counter sleep aides and Melatonin but nothing works. The problem is that my brain…

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December 29, 2017

Family Therapy / Gavin / My thoughts

Family therapy just took a heartbreaking and unexpected turn

Family therapy has become a routine thing for my family. It's important that we stay ahead of anything that's going on and ensure that the kids are getting what they need. Parenting three kids with Autism and various other special needs, makes it damn near impossible to meet all their needs. Therapy helps us to make sure that we're at least meeting the most important ones. Anyway, last night was pretty routine, right up until the end of the session. I honestly don't even remember what triggered this but basically, out of nowhere, Gavin had a total breakdown. He starts sobbing and we finally get out of him what's causing him distress. Apparently, Gavin is having thoughts of punching people in the face. He isn't wanting to act on it,…

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December 29, 2017

Gallery / My thoughts / Reviews

Review: Is the Shark Ion Robot Vacuum worth the money? (@sharkcleaning)

This review is sponsored by Shark. They sent me the new Shark Ion Robot Vacuum to review. The review contains my own opinions and thoughts as to the Shark Ion Robot Vacuum. I was not influenced by anyone or anything. Please help me share this review. Shortly before the recent holidays, I received a large box from Shark. If you're not familiar with the company, they make some pretty amazing vacuums and steam mops among other things. Inside this box was the brand new Shark Ion Robot Vacuum. Having never used one of these things before and only ever seeing one in the store, I had no idea what to expect. Below are my thoughts, personal experience and whether or not I would recommend this product to anyone. [foogallery id="68376"]…

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December 28, 2017

Clozapine / Gavin / Medication Management / My thoughts

We had a really close call

Yesterday afternoon, we realized that there was a problem with Gavin's Clozapine prescription. The problem was that we never received it. Last month, for whatever reason, the pharmacy didn't include the Clozapine in his predosed packets. Instead, they sent it out separately. Not a big deal.. Unfortunately, there was a change made to his prescription that we were never made aware of and that created a problem. For some reason, Gavin's prescription was reverted back to a seven day only. He'd been on a thirty day script for at least a year now. Not knowing this in advance created a problem because we needed to have his labs done every single Monday. This left us without a refill and working with the pharmacy to figure out what happened. I'm waiting…

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December 28, 2017

My thoughts

I got to do what I got to do

For only being a couple days after Christmas, the boys are doing quite well, at least in my opinion. They have been playing quietly for most of the day and there hasn't been much in the way of fighting. ☺ Lizze and I were able to sleep in a little bit and that's always appreciated. I do have a few things this afternoon that need to get done. The boys have therapy tonight and I desperately need to find the grocery store. Lizze is in a shitload of pain today, so I think we'll just let her sleep and I'll take the boys with me to the store. Am I looking forward to that? No, I'm not but I got to do what I got to do... ☺

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December 27, 2017

Autonomic Disorder / Gavin / My thoughts

Gavin was absolutely miserable tonight

Tonight was not good to Gavin. Poor Gavin got sick after dinner and was absolutely miserable until he finally fell asleep. Shortly after eating dinner, he got what he describes as a really bad stomachache. Tums seem to have helped with that rather quickly but it was the headache that kept him up last night. I'm beginning to suspect that when he has these episodes, they are mini autonomic crises. The reason I say that is because they always happen after eating, when his blood rushes to his stomach. That can and does cause his blood pressure to destabilize, leading to a headache. That's actually how we first discovered there was a problem in the first place. When he lays down, he often feels better. This happens a few times…

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December 26, 2017