Have you ever felt this overwhelmed by life?

It's been a really long day and I'm personally struggling with my depression. The boys, while home sick, felt better as the afternoon progressed and seem to be doing fine at this point in time. They've been moody and easily agitated but that happens on a good day. I really need to dedicate a post to this. Gavin on the other hand has been all over the place today. He's been testing my patience in every possible way, although I don't believe it to be intentional on his part. He's just struggling in many areas of his life and that's sorta par for the course for him. The amount of patience that Gavin requires on a daily basis is draining to say the least. He freaks out over every tiny…

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It’s 8 AM and I’m already not having fun today

Today has sorta already ground to a halt. Elliott and Emmett are both home from school because they aren't feeling well. Elliott is sleeping and Emmett is on overload. We've already had a few smaller meltdowns and it's just not a good way to begin the day. The October Crud is going around the school and it's found its why into our lives. I didn't sleep well last night because of my back and I'm going to hold off walking until later today. Gavin's in a weird place this morning and by that I mean weirder than normal. I don't mean that he's weird but rather his behavior is unusual or atypical for him. We'll see how the day goes. Lizze is feeling better today in some ways but worse…

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Chalk one up for the win column

For the last month, we've been struggling with Gavin's IVIG Infusions due to a shortage of supplies. It wasn't a huge deal because we had them send out the missing supplies and he never missed an infusion. While the supplier screwed up, it was my fault for not checking everything when it was delivered. It got lost in the shuffle and fell through the cracks. Gavin's October infusion supplies arrived this afternoon, while Gavin and I were at his appointment. As soon as we got home, I had Gavin go through his new supply box, and pair up all the supplies. He needed to make sure there were enough supplies for eight IVIG Infusions. He did a pretty good job matching everything up. He needed some guidance but he still…

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Here’s what we learned about the mass in Gavin’s forearm and what we’re doing next

Gavin did pretty good at his appointment today. The nurse came in and did the whole vitals thing. She gathered information and while she was doing so, we noticed a previously unnoticed, second mass. The new one in on Gavin's neck and he was not happy. This is when Gavin began to get agitated and upset. He started to have a meltdown but we were able to get things under control within a few minutes. The doctor examined the mass on Gavin's right forearm. She looked at it for quite sometime. It's one of those things where she can't say there's nothing to worry about and likewise, can't say this is serious and needs to addressed right away. She doesn't know what to think of it. We are also aware…

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Change isn’t easy for familes like mine and we had some unexpected change this morning

Plans have changed for today. Lizze is not feeling well at all and I'll be taking Gavin to his appointment on my own. It sucks when this happens for a mutilated of reasons but Lizze is truly miserable and can't be there. It's not her fault and I know she's way more upset about than I am. Anyway, we have to adapt to things like this. Unfortunately, as a Special Needs family, very few things ever go as originally planned. We have to be able to adjust, be flexible and carry on despite the upheaval. I live in a house where no one likes change, especially last minute, unpredictable change. Personally, I don't usually struggle with change, so it's my job to help lead everyone else through the change challenge.

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Gavin’s afraid he has cancer

I shared yesterday about a mass that has been found inside Gavin's right forearm. You can get the background information by clicking here. We've been playing it cool with him because we didn't want him to worry needlessly or at least until we knew there was something to worry about. We didn't think that Gavin was really concerned about it because he brought it to our attention and that was pretty much it. Turns out he's more worried than we thought. He and I we're filling our 5 gallon water jugs for the week and he just sorta blurted out that he's worried it might be cancer. I was caught off guard and didn't really know what to say to that. He has an appointment in the morning to have…

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Zane is finally showing improvement

Progress hasn't been easy but Zane is finally doing noticeably better. We've figured out a way to get him to take his antibiotics that has proven largely successful. He's better maintaining his body temperature, although we do have a space heater helping him in that area. Zane is starting to eat and drink on his own again. He's using the litter box and it seems likes his system is getting back on track. We are still keeping him isolated but only for a couple more days, maybe less. He's got another few days of antibiotics and hopefully, he'll start gaining weight again. We've all been so worried about him and are relieved to see him getting better. We can't wait to see him back to his crazy, hyper, bouncy and…

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In the continued spirit of we can’t catch a break, Gavin found a concerning mass in his arm

I haven't had a chance to talk about this yet but I'm making the time to do so now. Gavin came home from his Grandparents house on Monday afternoon. Shortly after he got back, he brought to my attention that he found what he describes as a lump on his right forearm. I didn't think anything of it because Gavin freaks out about everything and most often there's nothing to worry about or it's all in his head. Lizze or I will always check things out anyway but we don't assume the worst, if that makes sense.. It was my turn to check things out and when I did, I calmly called Lizze over to look for herself. What I found on Gavin's arm is definitely concerning but I don't…

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