I'm really stressed out about December. There are so many things going on and I'm afraid I won't be able to pull everything off. Beginning this week, I have a sting of out of town doctors appointments I need to get both Lizze and Gavin to. The appointments are mostly Cleveland Clinic trips and there are ten of them before Christmas. These are expensive and the car is in rough shape. At the same time, the trips have to happen. In between all that, we have to figure out Christmas, get a handle on Gavin's aggressive behavior and still make it to all of our regular appointments. We have a total of 20 appointments all together before Christmas Eve. It's incredibly overwhelming because I'm essentially the only driver in our…

It's been a weekend full of incredibly aggressive Meltdowns but I still managed to get this done.

We're leaving in a few minutes because Lizze has another doctor's appointment this afternoon. It's just a dentist appointment and so it's nothing major. I was able to sneak a nap in this morning and that's helped to recharge my batteries enough to feel better. Gavin's been doing well today but he's also been very quiet. Perhaps he's been going on some new missions and that's why he's been holed up in his bedroom. There are still piles of things weighing on me today and the stress I feel as a result is significant. I'm hoping to find a way to process some of these things more effectively because continuing to carry them with me is simply no longer an option. I'm experiencing a large amount of anxiety this afternoon…

We overslept today but the boys got to school on time. I'm so tired and all I want to do is go to bed. I've not been sleeping well lately and so I'm more exhausted than what would be considered typical. I opted to not go walking today because I'm too tired. Lizze has a doctor's appointment this afternoon and as a result, her mom is picking the kids up from school because of the timing conflict. I'm probably going to take a nap while Gavin's taking his morning nap. I haven't taken a nap in forever but I won't make it through today unless I close my eyes for a couple hours. There are a few jobs that I need to work on this afternoon but that's about it.…