I really need this right now

Today was a bit unexpected as it began with a snowday. I'm aware that we're watching a winter storm for this coming weekend but I didn't know anything about an ice storm last night. Anyway, everything was glazed in ice this morning and schools were called off. We didn't have any plans for today aside from school and therapy later this afternoon. We just ended up hunkering down with some movies and riding out the morning weather. We're just finishing up Jurassic World: Fallen Kingdom. I've already cleaned off the car and I'm hoping to go walking soon. There's no part of me that really wants to go but that's why it's so important that I do. Walking helps me work through some of my anxiety in a healthy, productive…

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Life sucks right now but there’s still things to be grateful for

It's been an interesting week thus far. Interesting is probably definitely the wrong word because I should say stressful. I've been really stressed the last few days, more so than normal. I'm really beginning to struggle with anxiety and fighting it is wearing me down both emotionally and physically. This has been sorta creeping up on me and went largely unnoticed because I thought it was just part of my depression. I also rationalized it because there's a shit load of practical reasons for me to be anxious. The tipping point for me was this weekend when I thought I broke one of my molars. I've known something wasn't right for a few days and had scheduled an appointment with my dentist for this week. Unfortunately, during our poor man's…

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I’m struggling a bit at the moment but here’s a quick update anyway

It's been a couple days since I've written much. Honestly, I'm in a pretty rough place. Tuesday was a difficult day for me and I'm not bouncing back, at least not at the moment. I probably just need some time. Anyway, until then, I'm going to force myself to do the things I would normally do because that will help me to stay ahead of the depression and continue moving forward. With that in mind, this will just be a quick update. The boys had a good morning and a great day at school. I'm really proud of them because we have a lot going on and simply returning to school after two weeks off is hard enough to adjust to. At the same time, they're struggling with the loss…

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It’s 25°F outside and 49°F in our house this morning

I will be the very first to admit that we are financially struggling. I make decent money but it's hard to do so consistently for a number of reasons that don't really matter at the moment. One of the struggles I have is in regards to the utilities. I can do really well for awhile and then I can fall behind, unable to get caught up. I'm currently in the fell behind category and I'm unable to get caught up. Actually, I'm only behind on one utility and that's our natural gas, through Dominion Energy Ohio. I've been working very hard to get things caught up but I'm $510 behind and past due, as of yesterday. That's actually pretty good, considering where we've been. On the way to the funeral…

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We’re laying my Grandfather to rest this morning and this is what we’re doing with the kids

It's going to be a rough day. My Grandfather's funeral is this morning and it's about an hour away. Calling hours will immediately be followed by the funeral. It's all in one day and I guess that's a thing now. Honestly, it's better this way because it makes it easier for everyone to be there for everything and that's important. After several discussions with Dr. Pattie, my parents, Lizze's parents and some of you, we decided to give the boys the opportunity to attend the funeral. This is only for Elliott and Emmett, as it's best for all, including Gavin, if he stays back. Both boys wanted to go and until last night, that was the plan. While I was out walking last night, Elliott decided that it would be…

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A few things you should NEVER say to an #Autism parent

While this is meant to be somewhat humorous, it's also trying to make a point. Statements like these are not helpful. They can can be annoying and even downright offensive. I can't tell you how many times I've heard things like: You should use a sticker chart because all kids respond to sticker charts. You need to discipline your child and they won't act that way. Are you sure he's Autistic because he doesn't look Autistic. Don't worry, he'll outgrow it. He's just a picky eater, and he'll eat when he's hungry. I know all about Autism, I've seen Rain Man. I will say that a good number of the people who have said these things to me have been well intentioned. They mean well but at the same time,…

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