I'm so not in a place to be around people right now. I tried but it's just not working out for me. Everything is setting me off because I'm so incredibly sensitive at the moment. People don't always realize how painful the end of a marriage can be for a husband who's heartbroken.  I removed myself for a bit to write because I was seriously going to explode. Not holding out much hope right now of salvaging the day. Not sure if I'm going to make it the entire time...  💔   

It's been a really good morning so far. Okay, actually I meant afternoon.. 😜 Anyway, the boys and I will be off to my parents house for an August birthday's celebration. If you didn't already know, my birthday is in August and more specifically tomorrow.  The weathers beautiful out and the temperatures just right.  While this is going to be difficult for me on an emotional level, I'm damn sure going to make the best of it. While life has taken some unexpected turns of late, it hasn't stopped altogether and I need to move forward. 😀   

My birthday is on Monday but because my family is so large, we sorta lump all the August birthdays together and celebrate on one day.  That day is today..  There's a great deal of emotion surrounding this me and I don't know if I'll be able to hold it together. I know life goes on and I have a lot of life to eventually get to but it's hard.  I don't know if this makes sense to anyone but I'm gonna try anyway.  I'm not hung up on my wife. I don't miss her, at least who she is now and I know from the bottom of my heart, that the boys and I are better off. I know that.  At the same time, I feel this tremendous loss that…