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Gavin’s driving me crazy because apparently, I’m not stressed out enough already

I'm going to try and keep things on track and if you're looking for updates on Lizze's Dad, please check here. If Lizze isn't up to it, she may ask me to convey her thoughts. Having said that, while we haven't noticed any changes in Gavin's behavior yet, his typical behavior is overwhelming enough already. Gavin's truly the sweetest kid, and I couldn't be any prouder of him. At the same time, he's been driving me crazy (yes, I know that's a short trip). I love him dearly but he will not stop talking. He's in one of those places where I'm not sure he even realizes that he talking outloud. Lately, he's been verbalizing every thought that comes into his mind. There's some strange shit that goes through his…

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August 31, 2017

My thoughts

When it comes to family, we do what we have to do

Our week has been re-prioritized in the wake on my father in laws heart attack. My Mom is going to be taking the boys to school and then hanging out with Gavin. This is a huge help because we need to get back to the hospital as early as we can. Right now, what matters most is rallying around our family and being there for whatever is needed. The boys are aware that Grandpa's sick and in the hospital getting better. They don't need to know any more than that at this point, and frankly, the only reason we said anything is because they overheard someone asking how her Dad was doing. They seem to be doing okay with it and that makes it much easier for us to redirect…

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August 31, 2017

Thoughts and Prayers

Please send your thoughts and prayers

Without going into much detail, I'm writing tonight in order to ask that you guys send your positive thoughts and prayers in our direction. On Wednesday afternoon, Lizze's Dad suffered a massive heart attack. He will be undergoing quintuple bypass surgery in the morning. This is very serious but hope is high that the surgery will go well and he will be back in his feet. Please send your positive thoughts and/or prayers. They are greatly appreciated and humbly accepted.

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August 31, 2017

Emmett John / My thoughts

This morning was stressful AF

We spent all morning listening to Emmett screaming. If he wasn't screaming about one thing, he was screaming about another. It's not the best way to start out the day. I've no idea why he was so out of sorts this morning, but it was awful. He did get off to school with Elliott but when we got to school, he realized he forgot his lunch. After I go for my walk, I'll have to make a return trip to the school to drop off his lunch. At this point, I'm so stressed out and I'm hoping a good walk will be just what the doctor ordered, in more ways than one.

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August 30, 2017

Clozapine Crisis / Gavin / My thoughts

I’m hopeful this will produce a positive outcome

Beginning today, Gavin will be on a reduced dose of Clozapine. We will be dropping from 600 mg/day, down to 500 mg/day until we return from Gavin's wish being granted by Wishes Can Happen in October. We don't want any medication changes to take place during the trip for a million reasons, one of them being we want Gavin to have fun. There's no way to really predict how Gavin is going to be reacting to this change in medication. We may see an increase of Schizophrenic symptoms, including a return to more dark and concerning behavior. We may also not see a change at all, and that will basically tell us, at the very least, he doesn't need the higher dose. If there's no change, we will continue to…

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August 30, 2017

Lizze / My thoughts

How we ended a very stressful day

It's been a really long day and I haven't written much because I'm really tired. It's been an emotional roller-coaster today with all things Gavin. Rather than focus on that, I wanted to share how our day ended instead. After getting the boys to finally go to bed, Lizze and I settled in to watch a movie. I've been dying to see Wonder Woman but I couldn't get Lizze to go see it. It didn't interest her in the slightest, so I didn't push for it. It was released on Google Play yesterday and I've had it pre-ordered for awhile. Lizze begrudgingly agreed to watch it with me last night. She wasn't super excited about watching it but she was doing it for me. ☺ After about fifteen minutes, the…

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August 30, 2017

Clozapine Crisis / Gavin / My thoughts

The decision has been made

We just got out of Gavin's appointment, and my God it took forever. The two and a half hour wait sucked but I can't really complain because they squeezed us in. This appointment was purposed to discuss Gavin's medication, specifically the Clozapine and it's impact on his health. I'm exhausted after all of this, and I'm going to make this as quick and painless as possible. After discussing the possible options, we opted to go with Lizze's approach because it was the most conservative, and it was also a really good idea. ☺ Basically, we are reasonably sure that the Clozapine is at least one of the contributing factors to Gavin's blood related issues. If fact, it's likely to be the biggest overall factor but there are also other things…

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August 29, 2017

Clozapine / Gavin / My thoughts

We may have a very, very difficult decision to make today

In the morning, we have an emergency appointment with Dr. Reynolds, Gavin's psychiatrist. This is an emergency appointment to decide on the future of his Schizophrenia management. This is an enormous decision because it can potentially impact the rest of his life. If we take Gavin off the Clozapine, he will never be able to go back on it again. It's very important to understand that at this point in time, there isn't another antipsychotic that he can safely take. Taking him off the Clozapine could very well mean that we set Gavin up to be an unmedicated Schizophrenic for the rest of his life. While we're mauling that over, there's another side to this coin. If the Clozapine is what's causing the issues with the cell lines in his…

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August 29, 2017