I’m tired of being this way

I'm going to be quite busy this morning. The boys have to get to school, Gavin has to get his bloodwork done, and Lizze has two appointments to get to. All of this is before lunch time. My goal this week is to get my weightloss and return to wellness back on track. Honestly, I've never recovered from the holiday's and I desperately need to get back on track. Exercise is a critical part of managing my depression without medication and I fully intend on making this work. I'm tired of being overweight. I'm tired of being so easily winded. I'm tired of not being happy with the current condition my body is in. I used to body build and I've fallen so far from that. I don't want that…

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I suppose it wouldn’t be the worst thing in the world

It's been an interesting and even pleasant evening. Tuesday night therapy went well for everyone and while the boys were a handful at bedtime, everyone's sleeping. Lizze went to a late night movie with her Mom and I ended up falling asleep one the couch before 10 PM. I slept clean through until Lizze got home a bit after midnight. She had a great time with her Mom and I had a really quiet evening alone, which is actually nice to have every once in a while.. ☺ There's a better than average chance that we're looking at a snowday this morning. The school had already been talking about this when I was picking the kids up yesterday afternoon. I suppose a snowday wouldnt be the worst thing in the…

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Why I ALWAYS expect the unexpected

The last time we spoke, I was talking about how we were going to get Emmett back to school today. I was worried about a few things that turned out not to be a problem at all. Last night, Elliott went to bed dealing with tummy issues. Emmett woke up a bit after midnight with tummy issues, while Gavin woke up about 3 AM sobbing because his head hurt and he felt like he was going to puke. Needless to say, this Dad didn't get much sleep last night and no one went to school today. I know there are tons of things floating around the school and thankfully this seems like a 12 hour bug because everyone is beginning to feel better. Lizze sent me to bed this morning…

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Please keep Emmett in your thoughts and prayers

I mentioned that Emmett would be home from school today. The reason for that is rather bad fever flare. I'm pretty sure it started on Saturday because that when the physical symptoms began. At first, it was just one sore on the inside of his lip, but as of Sunday evening, he's got several more. The poor kid is in a lot of pain and isn't eating much as a result. He doesn't eat enough on a good day, and this makes things worse. Right now I'm making him milkshakes and mixing SlimFast powder in for some nutrition. These are cold and numb his mouth enough that he can relax a bit. Unfortunately, it doesn't last forever, and he goes right back to being miserable. There isn't much we can…

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So far, I’m pushing through the exhaustion

Work has been keeping me pretty busy lately. That's never a bad thing because anytime I can improve our financial status, it's a good thing. I haven't had much in the way of work this morning, which frankly is probably a good thing because I'm so tired. I do have myself a new writing buddy. Ruby sleeps on my lap while I write and I'm not sure if that helping or hurting.. ☺ While it's true that I want nothing more than to climb back into bed, I'm forcing myself to not only keep my activity level up but also workout as well. I even using the laundry to help me reach my flights of steps for today. The more I push through this exhaustion, the more I'm going to…

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Dry air makes it so hard for me to sleep

I had a rough time sleeping last night. Majority of the problem was related to the air being so dry, it made me really stuffy and that always makes it hard for me to sleep. It's like a fricking desert. Around 2 AM I ended up downstairs on the couch. Its easier to breathe down there for some reason. I need to put the humidifier on the second floor because that should make a difference. I didn't end up fall asleep with Ruby curled up next to me. Thankfully, the boys are at Lizze's parents house, so I was able to sleep in. Gavin didn't need anything this morning and I wasn't disturbed. All we have to do today is take Lizze to the dentist, get stuff for the boys…

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Doing right by Gavin for his 18th birthday isn’t as easy as it sounds

Gavin will turn eighteen in a few days. To be honest, that's a pretty big deal for a number of reasons. The most obvious is that he's physically made it to eighteen and I say that because of his fragile health. He's had some close calls over the years and there were times we weren't sure we would ever see this day. Instinctively, we want to make a huge deal out of this day. We want Gavin to have the best birthday of his life thus far. There are so many things that Gavin will never be able to celebrate. Things like high school graduation, getting his driver's license, going to college and truly living on his own. As much as we want to through a huge party for him…

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