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I ran into problems when I tried voting today

Lizze and I went to cast our ballots in the Ohio Primary Election today. I don't remember ever voting in a Primary before but I'm much more politically motivated and recognize the importance of my vote. Here's what happened when I went to cast my ballot. I know there are many people who may find themselves in a similar place and I want to make sure you have your voice heard. https://youtu.be/I6PUAloJMzo Here's what happened. When I went into the poll, I was asked if I was a registered Republican, which I am. I explained that The didn't want to vote Republican though. Not having voted in a Primary before, or at least in a long time, I didn't know that I would be giving a ballot for Republican candidates…

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May 8, 2018

Announcements / My thoughts

Awesome news

I've spent the last 15 hours rebuilding the server from the ground up. The main reason for doing this was because with theautismdad.com permanently banned On Facebook, there too many things broken as a result. For example, logging into the site with Facebook was impossible, as was a few other behind the scenes things tied to my Facebook app. It was necessary to reimage the server in order to make the changes necessary to overcome this particular obstacle. I had planned on making this particular change at some point anyway, the events of the last few months simply forced me to move up my timeline a bit. You may or may not know but my ultimate goal is to create a non-profit foundation that does what I'm already doing and…

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May 8, 2018

Confessions / My thoughts

I was not in a good place when I wrote this

Disclaimer: This post is meant to provide insight into my state of mind in this very moment. I'm writing this in an attempt to process these feelings and deal with them in a positive way. I'm far from perfect but I get up each morning and do my very best to be what everyone needs me to be. Unfortunately, on days like today, I don't just fall short, I straight up crash and burn. These are the thoughts and feelings of an overwhelmed husband and father. I understand that my logic might not make sense but I'm writing this in real time and it's how I'm feeling in this very moment. Tomorrow is a new day and things will be better, but for right now, they aren't. I'll also add…

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May 6, 2018

My thoughts

The plan for today

The plan for today is to work on the house for a little while before going to the park and enjoying the weather. Maybe we'll go for hike in the woods. We haven't done that is a while. The only problem with that Is that Emmett only wears crocs and those aren't conducive for hiking. We'll have to stop every 30 seconds for Emmett to fix them. I heard a rumor that the boys might be spending the night with their Grandparents but I'm not sure if that's actually happening or not. The only other two things on the agenda today is to get the water jugs filled and watch the Cavs destroy the Raptors in game 3..☺

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May 5, 2018

Elliott / Emmett John / My thoughts / The Little Things

A little routine I have with my kids on the #Autism Spectrum

Everyday, I arrive at the school about an hour early, start the parent pickup line and enjoy the quiet. I've been doing this for years. During the before (what we call the 2 year separation), this was really important because the kids were struggling and they felt reassured to see me there early each day. It was important to me that always know I was there for them, especially in those darker times. That was a long time ago and I continue doing this today. It's become something of a routine for me and one that it's beneficial to my sanity. It's part of my self-care routine. I enjoy parking in the shade, basking in the quiet and either reading or writing for an hour until the boys are released…

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May 4, 2018

My thoughts

I wasn’t doing so well this morning

I had a rough night trying to sleep. It's all allergy related but it still makes sleeping very difficult for me. Lizze was kind enough to get the kids to school this morning. Actually, it was only Emmett because Elliott is quite clearly not feeling well. Anyway, I'm feeling much better after getting some sleep. There's not really anything on the agenda for today. I might try and work out in the yard if I can. As crazy as this is going to sound, we've not heard gunshots during the day in awhile. We hear them at night quite frequently but it's been relatively quiet during the day. This helps me feel a bit safer, should I decide to try and get some yard work done this afternoon. Gavin's doing…

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May 4, 2018

My thoughts

This almost never happens

All in all, it's been a pretty good evening. I made a decent dinner and since Elliott and Emmett were still at my parents, I only had to cook one time instead of multiple times. Not only that, but everyone left in the house ate it. ☺ This almost never happens but I'm grateful when it does. I grilled some chicken breast and baked a couple sweet potatoes, along with steaming some green beans. It was pretty darn good if I do say so myself. The one problem we did have occurred after the boys came home, and that was bedtime. Emmett flat out refused to go to sleep because he's afraid of having another nightmare. It took quite a bit of effort and patience to get him down for…

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May 4, 2018

Autism Parenting Struggles / Gavin / My thoughts

I hate seeing him upset like this

It's been a rough evening thus far, and it's only 6:30 PM. Gavin has had several freak outs since we've been home. A freak out is not the same thing as a meltdown because they typically don't last as long. Basically, this is what we call it when Gavin gets really upset over something and begins hitting himself or comforting his body. These things can occur during a meltdown as well but meltdowns typically involve screaming and a significant amount of emotional purging. When Gavin freaks out, it's usually because he's pissed off or frustrated over something. These incidents didn't last more than a couple minutes a piece but those few minutes are exhausting because we never really know what's going to happen. The reason he was freaking out was…

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May 3, 2018