We have a pretty good day ahead of us. Lizze has to get a filling fixed this morning and then all the kids are going to her parents for a little while to bake cookies. It's become sort of a tradition now. Lizze and I will reevaluate where we stand in regards to our part of Christmas while the kids are incognito. After that, there's nothing on the agenda. I'm feeling hopeful about today. ☺
I'm struggling with depression at the moment but I want to be open about my struggle.
I had a really tough conversation with the boys yesterday. Gavin wasn't a part of it because he was on a mission in another galaxy when this went down. That's not sarcasm either. Gavin's Schizophrenic and truly believes he goes on missions. Anyway, Elliott and Emmett had been fighting because that's just what they do anymore. While I was talking to them and trying to help resolve their current disagreement, Emmett opened up about some things bothering him. Neither of the boys ever really open up like this unless they're really upset and it just sorta slips out. They've always been that way and I don't know why.. Anyway, Emmett kinda laid into me about why we can't move to a better house. He listed a few things that were…
It's been a pretty great morning thus far. After the long week had by the boys and I, everyone woke up with minimal effort. ☺ Elliott seems to be doing better and that's a big deal. Oh shit! That reminds me, I forgot to explain what happened at Elliott's appointment, so let me quickly bring you up to speed. We saw the doctor on Friday and Elliott doesn't appear to have pneumonia. ☺ It seems like an upper respiratory thing, probably a virus and that's triggering issues with his asthma. His doctor is focusing on treating the asthma with steroids and his emergency inhaler. After a few days, all signs point to improvement. ...... and now you're up to speed. ☺ After dropping the kids off at school, I got…
I've got some news that I think is pretty goddamn amazing and I'm incredibly proud of myself. 2018 has been a year of accomplishing goals. These goals are more personal in nature and basically were that I wanted to bring my weight loss journey to a major milestone, as well as return to the dentist after a lengthy break. Coming into 2018, my weight hit an all-time high of 340+ lbs and I knew I needed to make a change. My ultimate goal was to bring my weight under 300 lbs before the end of the year and I worked as hard as I could to make that happen. Until the weather turned frigid, I walked an average of 81 miles a month at the track and that was quite…
We have a pretty busy week ahead of us. We have appointments or places to be, almost everyday. Today is the only day that has remained relatively open. That said, I feel like I'm forgetting something today and it's been bugging me all weekend. It's like I'm supposed to be doing something and it's disappeared from my calendar. It might simply be my flu shot but it feels like something more important. I hate feeling like I'm forgetting something. It's frustrating. Anyway, we will close the week off with the boy's Christmas program at school and then begin Christmas break. Gavin is incredibly excited about the concert because he wants to record it on his tablet. He's literally been telling everyone he comes into contact with, all about the program.…
It's been many years since Gavin began taking Clozapine been and roughly 2 years since Gavin began having issues with his blood work, that had a significant impact on how he received refills of his most important medication. Clozapine is an antipsychotic and is one of the most tightly controlled medications in the US. Clozapine is used to treat Gavin's Schizophrenia and its been largely effective at helping to at least reduce his auditory and visual hallucinations. It's not perfect and the medication is controlled because of its inherent danger but when closely monitored, it's actually very safe. There's a process for taking Clozapine and receiving refills. Gavin had to have blood work once a week in order to receive his next 7 days worth of pills. The labs are…
By the time you're reading this, Lizze is home and everyone is asleep, including me. Maybe not, I don't know. I'd like to think I'm asleep, as is everyone else because I'm exhausted. The boys and I had a pretty good week. I'm not gonna lie, there were some tense moments. I definitely struggled at times but we also made some positive memories. Our guys movie night, was a big hit and I wouldn't mind doing that more often. ☺ In the moment, it was absolutely a challenge but at the end of the day, I'm really grateful to have had these moments. There are a great many things going on in my personal life that make things a great deal oore difficult for me. I'm doing the best I…