The good news is I managed to get about 4 hours of sleep last night. The bad news is I only managed to get about 4 hours of sleep last night.  I have such a hard time sleeping when I'm congested and I'm very limited on what I can take because its just me and the kids. I have to be able to wake up if need be. I'm feeling pretty under the weather right now and I was really hoping to walk this morning..  Once I'm up and moving, perhaps I'll feel better....     

I haven't shared this yet and frankly, I'm not really sure why.  Something that Dr. Pattie is concerned about with Elliott and Emmett is that they are showing a lot of borderline symptoms.  That's not a diagnosis by any means but it is very concerning.   We aren't sure what is genetic vs what's learned behavior. What we know for sure is that they are very much walking a path that needs intervention.     Again, this isn't a diagnosis at all. It's a concern based on long term observation and interaction by someone who knows way more about this than I.  Kids are tough. Traumatized kids with special needs are even tougher because the symptoms of many things often overlap, especially when trauma is involved and there's no clear cut way…

Tomorrow is sorta like a fresh start to the week for me. The boys should be back in school and I'll be able to return to walking once again.  The week this far has pretty much been a hot mess.  It's a short school week to begin with and the boys were home sick yesterday. It just throws everything off kilter.   I have high hopes for tomorrow. I intend to at least try to sleep tonight and wake up feeling better, ready to take on a new and challenging day.   

The boys are home sick today. I don't know if it's allergies or what but they are congested, coughing and sneezing.     They really struggled at school yesterday and so I kept them home with the hopes of getting them on Benedryl and getting a head of their symptoms.  Perhaps most kids would still go to school with something like this but kids with Autism and sensory issues, have a much more difficult time coping with this type of situation.  I'm dealing with something similar to what they are. I'm a 37 year old, neurotypical, adult male and I'm struggling with whatever we are fighting.  I truly can't imagine what it's like for my kids.  This pretty much killed any plans I had for today but frankly, I'm barely functioning…