No one's ever excited to go to the doctors. I maybe the rare exception to that rule because I know I'm in a really good place, at least compared to my last follow up. I've lost thirty pounds, successfully came off Paxil, got back into exercising and dropped my cholesterol by over 50 pts. I'm excited to see my doctor because she never gave up on me and I want to show her that her faith in me was not misplaced. I know it sounds cheesy but I haven't been able to make this kind of progress, well, ever. I'm so proud of myself and I'm ready to figure out my next goals going into the fall. While I'm doing pretty well overall, I still have my struggles both emotionally…

I never thought this would be the case but I'm really struggling with my upcoming 40th birthday. I know it's just a birthday but it's a major milestone and I had envisioned my life much differently than it's turned out. Don't take that wrong. I'm not unhappy with my life but the stress and anxiety filled direction it's taken is overwhelming on a good day. There's so much to worry about on a daily basis and there are some things I'm going to be worrying about for the rest of my life. I don't see a point where I'm ever going to be able to put these struggles behind me. As I'm only a few weeks away from turning 40, I just can't help but evaluate my life, my current…

The day has begun kinda early. We're getting ready to leave and begin our travels in short order. Lizze had a rough night apparently. Both her shoulders slipped out of socket and that's not fun. Speaking of shoulder slippage, Gavin's left shoulder popped out of socket last night. He was picking something up and BAM, instant pain. 😔 Anyway, he's feeling better this morning but Lizze is still in pain. We have a fairly decent drive ahead of us and assuming there's no major traffic delays, we should be on the road for about an hour, maybe an hour and twenty minutes. Anyway, everyone's in a fairly good mood and that's never a bad thing. I'm super excited about resolving our bandwidth issues with a new modem and the speed…

We have a busy week ahead of us. At least the first half of the week is going to be busy. In the morning, we have to swing by the Spectrum office in order to get our modem replaced. We're having bandwidth issues recently and it's effecting the way our house functions. We need a new modem in order to get a needed speed boost. After that, we have to go to Cleveland because Lizze and the boys have appointments with immunology. They'll be there for things other than immunology related issues. This doctor also deals with seasonal allergies, Emmett's fever disorder, Elliott's food allergies and asthma. I don't believe Gavin has an appointment because he recently had his. This will take most of the day and I'll end up…