I totally dropped the ball last night and didn't realize it until this morning. As a result, it's been pretty chaotic. I went to bed fairly early last night because I was exhausted. As I was laying in bed, I couldn't shake the feeling that I was forgetting something, but couldn't figure out what that something was. As I was getting everyone moving this morning, I remembered what I was supposed to do. I forgot to make fresh pepperoni rolls for the boys school lunch and I also forgot to do Elliott's laundry. I can't believe I forgot to get these things done before I went to bed. I suppose that's what exhaustion can lead to. Thankfully, I had time to bake the pepperoni rolls and now I'm just waiting…

There are a few things to talk about before I call it a night. Some are positive and others, not so much. I will begin with the more unpleasant stuff because I'd like to end on a positive note. Part of the reason I haven't written much this weekend is because I'm really focusing on the kids and they're struggling quite a bit. I always focus on the kids but Elliott, in particular, has been very, very upset for the last day or so. I'm trying to give him some space while still helping him to work through some of this. Unfortunately, the best I can do is listen, help him to feel validated because, in many ways, he's not wrong. I also help him work on ways of dealing…

I didn't do anything incredibly productive last night and I'm okay with that. I hardly get any time to myself and when I do, a large part of me wants to do absolutely nothing. I'm exhausted and overwhelmed but these little breaks are pretty awesome. They're a necessity, even if I don't do anything. Last night, I did manage to record a podcast. I felt inspired to talk about something that is consuming my life at the moment and that topic is divorce. It's a shorter episode, less than 20 minutes but I wanted to talk about navigating divorce when Autistic kids are involved. It's a delicate issue to speak about, but an important one. The plan is to release it next Friday but I'm not entirely sure. I'm coordinating…

I barely got the kids to school today because Elliott and Emmett are struggling so much. This is so much worse this time around. I'm so frustrated because every single day is a nightmare now and the struggle is unbelievable. When I had the boys to Akron Children's Behavioral Health this week, we talked about how to help them manage. He explained that the boys had been traumatized in 2014 when their mom left and retraumatized when she left again in August. Unfortunately, there isn't any medication that is going to fix this. The only thing that will eventually help is time and lots of therapy. The problem at this point is that this trauma is so new and they still refuse to talk about it. This is impacting every…

It's been an got very little accomplished kinda day. Emmett came home from school about 10 AM because he was in too much pain. He went and tried to stick it out but it was too much. The antivirals don't seem to be helping much right now and that sucks cause it means this could go on for a while. Elliott made it through the day. He wasn't feeling well and struggled emotionally but he made it. I'm really proud of him. We only have one school day left and I'm praying it goes well because I have to have the car to the shop in the morning. The software in the car is getting a free upgrade to Android Auto and I'm pretty excited about that. Assuming the kids…

It was another difficult night and a very challenging morning. Elliott didn't want to go to school again because when he's there, he can't stop thinking about him mom leaving and our ferret dying. He's worried about what the teachers might say when he becomes upset. He's an anxious kid to begin with and he's miserable because of all this. He ultimately went and I'm so proud of him for doing that. I know he's going to have a rough day but if he can stick it out, they will eventually get better. Emmett on the other hand, refused to go to school. This is coming from a kid who's favorite place in the world is often school. There are a number of reasons for him not wanting to go…