The boys are off school today for teacher in service day. It's been pretty quiet thus far and I'm continuing to car shop. My stress level is pretty high and I suppose that's to be expected. As I was writing this, my doctor called because my labs came back and they're apparently not good. They said they aren't terrible but my cholesterol is up and my triglycerides are as well. This has me a bit freaked out because I was doing so well. My cholesterol was 150 and everything else was optimal. That was in January. Since then, I lost my grandparents, my marriage ended and I've not been able to maintain the things I was doing to deal with things. This is probably stress related and I just need…

I just wanted to push out a super quick update before going to bed. It's been a long couple of days and they are taking a toll on me. I'm even more stressed out since the the car died because I'm very preoccupied with replacing it and I'm kinda under the gun. I've spent the last 48 hours car shopping and it's incredibly stressful. I'm happy to share that I've secured financing as of noon today. The paperwork went through and I'm able to move forward. That's hugely positive but I'm dealing with one final obstacle and that's the down payment. I've narrowed things down to three or four cars and feel really good about it because I did it on my own. It's frustrating being held up by less…

I don't even know where to start. To say it's been a rough day is an understatement. We had to say goodbye to a beloved family pet this afternoon. It was pretty awful and yet we haven't even been able to face that before things got even worse. Rest in Peace Lemme 😔 💔 I met with the boys therapist alone tonight because the kids were with my Mom. I had to deal with the vet and they weren't going to be back in time to go to therapy. That's how I ended up there alone. We used the time to discuss ways of helping the kids and figuring out how to move forward. After that I was supposed to pick the kids up at my parents house. When I…

My Mom just picked up the kids and is taking them to my brother's house for the afternoon. They're going to be hanging out with their adorable little cousin, while my Mom babysits everyone. This serves as a very positive distraction and the kids have chosen this over going with me to the vet this afternoon. Thank God for that because I wasn't looking forward to sharing that experience with them. The boys spent the lunchtime hour saying their tearful goodbyes to Lemme. They're assuming this will be the last time they see her and while that is likely to be the case, I could find out today that her symptoms are caused by something else and she'll ultimately be fine. I'm not openly encouraging hope in this situation because…

My life right now ranges from absolutely blessed to totally fucking shitty and there are a few stops in between. It's overwhelming and frustrating but it's also rewarding as well. I'm absolutely blessed because I have my kids, plain and simple. There is no other way to see that and I'm endlessly grateful they are such a huge part of my everyday life. They test me, try my patience and often drive me fucking crazy but they make me a better person. They remind me every minute of every day that the world is bigger than me and it helps a great deal with maintaining perspective. With that out of the way, I need to vent. I'm so overwhelmed by everything and I don't know how to get out from…