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The world just might end today

When people say things like the the world is going to end, it's usually a religious based prediction that ultimately never comes to fruition. When I say the world just might end today, I'm referring to fact that it's raining and trick or treat might not happen. Personally, I don't give a shit if we go or not. Frankly, I don't want the candy in the house anyway. That said, I have 3 kids that are hanging the rest of their lives on whether or not to they go trick or treating today. Emmett is absolutely beside himself because he's afraid the rain won't stop long enough for him to put on his Black Panther costume and knock on strangers doors for candy. Gavin is pretty much the same way.…

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October 28, 2018

Emmett John / My thoughts

Emmett never fell asleep last night and I’m so exhausted my head hurts

Lizze and I barely got any sleep last night because Emmett never went to bed. He is so stressed out for some reason and there are a few possible suspects but the biggest is in regards to the weather. Emmett is so worried that trick or treating will be called off due to the weather. It's supposed to be raining all day today. I don't think anyone really wants to be walking in the cold rain but I know 3 people who are willing to. I think I maybe slept for about an hour. I'm currently writing this around 5:45 AM because Emmett is downstairs and I was so restless, I needed to move around. My goal is to fall asleep on the couch while he plays the Xbox for…

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October 28, 2018

Autism Parenting Discussions / My thoughts

The importance of planning for the future and #inclusion in the workplace

I'm now 18 years into my #SpecialNeeds parenting journey and things are beginning to pop up on my radar that simply didn't until now. What I've learned about planning for the future and the importance of #inclusion in the workplace #VOYA #Brandpartner #gettingtoequal #NDEAM

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October 27, 2018

Autism Parenting Struggles / Elliott / Emmett John / Gavin / My thoughts

Gavin’s behavioral problems will ultimately be the end of us getting a night off

Lizze and I are knee deep in the first break we've had in about a month. Gavin and the boys are at their grandparents for the night. What typically happens is that these types of visits are are broken up. The boys (Elliott and Emmett) will go and Gavin stays home. Gavin will go by himself the next time, while the boys stay home. The reason for that is because of problems that tend to arise as a result of Gavin and the boys not getting along. I've talked about this before. Gavin will try to parent the boys and/dictate what they do while they're visiting. The boys don't like it and it just creates problems. Frankly, we see this at home all the time and it's definitely not a…

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October 27, 2018

Autism Parenting Insight / My thoughts

#Autism parenting can feel so defeating for so many different reasons

I'm feeling incredibly overwhelmed today. I know that sorta seems like the current trend but the truth is the truth and whether it's pleasant or not is irrelevant. I wish I could pinpoint the cause of these feelings but there's simply too much going on that's creating undo stress, to know up form down. Things like depression, financial problems, physical/emotional health struggles and even safety issues where we live, all play a roll. The day didn't get off on a good foot. While the boys are doing a bit better as the day goes on, they won't make it to school. Gavin is being Gavin this morning and while I'd never want him to be anyone other than himself, his constant need to narrate he life is driving me crazy.…

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October 26, 2018

Elliott / Emmett John / My thoughts

Nose bleeds and tummy aches

It's gonna be a long trick or treat weekend. Both boys are home from school but for different reasons. Elliott went to bed not feeling well and woke up not feeling any better. His stomach is upset.be his nose is really dry and that's what behind this. Once we get this under control, I probably get him a saline nose spray. Emmett on the other hand is feeling okay but is getting nose bleeds and they take awhile to get them to stop. This actually first happened a couple of days ago and it started again this morning. Emmett woke me up about 6 AM, so I could help him. He's not doing anything to cause them. They just sorta happen. I'm thinking maybe his nose is really dry and…

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October 26, 2018

Autism Parenting Struggles / My thoughts

I was completely overwhelmed tonight and didn’t handle it well

Good days and bad days are relative, especially when you're an Autism parent. A good day might be only having to live through a few meltdowns and a bad day might be absolutely catastrophic. There are of course, plenty of days that fall somewhere in-between. Today for me was mixed bag. Lizze was down for most of the day, which sucks for a million reasons, not the least of which is the fact that she's truly miserable. Sometimes the struggle is physical and sometimes it's emotional in nature. Other times it's a combination of both. Today was a combination of both and life just wasn't fair to her. Anyway, after school today, I picked the boys up and took them to my parents house to carve pumpkins. It's become a…

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October 26, 2018

Lizze / My thoughts

Why it’s been an emotionally heavy day

Last night we went to family night at the kids school. It was okay. The kids had fun and that's all that really matters. These things are always crowed, loud and in the middle of the goddamn school week. I get why they do that but it also means that the kids get all worked up, struggle to go to sleep and have a hard time going to school the next day. Anyway, this was a science night and they did all kinds of cool little experiments. The boys loved it. Some of the experiments totally blew Gavin's mind. It was like magic to him, which is sorta sad for me but at the same time, I'm happy that he enjoyed himself. Lizze came with us and that was not…

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October 25, 2018