There comes a point in my journey as a special needs parent, where I truly find myself in a place where I don't know what to do. I've found myself in one such place and I don't know what to do.  Gavin is reaching a point where in many cases, it's think to breathe.  God love him because he tries so hard but some of things he does just makes me want to scream. Here's something that happened yesterday that had me wanting to literally be able to climb inside his head and experience his thought process because I'm at a complete loss.    Gavin's been having serious bladder issues and the medication that's supposed to help, isn't.  There has always been a rule in the house that significantly limited…

As I'm laying in bed at night, sorta pondering the day I just finished up, I have these grandiose plans for the following day. All these things that I'm going to accomplish, like laundry, cleaning the bathroom or simply making the needed phone calls that are on my list of to-dos.. It seems so possible for those things to be tackled the following day and I feel a surge of motivation.  When the following morning arrives, I usually haven't slept well and I can't for the life of me figure out where the previous nights motivation has run off to.  That pile of laundry that I was totally talking shit to the night before, is just way too intimidating now and that bathroom I swore to myself I would scrub…

The boys and I had a rough afternoon. Well, the boys had a rough afternoon and I was driven completely bonkers.  I mentioned in a previous post that I was going to take 3 kids, 2 unwillingly, to the park because Daddy needed to get the crazy train back on the tracks.  We did just that.  The boys and I met my parents at the Garden Center and we walked around there before walking the track.     Elliott had a rough time because he couldn't do everything that he wanted to but we found a compromise and he found a bit of peace. 😊 I carried Emmett on my shoulders for a good while and when we made it back to the car, it was dark.  The boys were in…

ABC News put out an article today about a man named Brian Randolph of South Lyon, Michigan.  He was arrested and charged with armed robbery and bank robbery.  Apparently, on August 12, 2015, Randolph entered the Vibe Credit Union in South Lyon, Michigan and handed the teller a note demanding the money. He also indicated to the teller that he had a shotgun hidden in his clothes although never actually showed the teller because he was in fact, unarmed.  After he was arrested, he explained that he robbed the Credit Union out of desperation. As it turns out, his 1 year old daughter Brailynn Randolph has cancer, more specifically, retinoblastoma.. This is cancer that forms in the eyes.  She's receiving chemotherapy every four weeks and due for her next treatment…