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Someone has slept in their own bed for 2 straight nights

I have been getting much better sleep lately because Emmett has been in his own bed for the past two nights. Since Lizze left, he's been struggling to sleep by himself. He experiences separation anxiety and has to be physically touching me in order to fall asleep. I want to be there for him but at the same time, it's very difficult to sleep because I can't get comfortable. He tends to sleep in positions that take up a large part of my king size matteess. Since becoming single, I prefer to sleep in the middle of the mattress and I can't do that with him there. The last couple of nights, he's managed to stay in his own bed and I've slept so well. I am fully aware of…

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December 26, 2020

My thoughts

Why the holidays are tough for us

One of the challenges for me as a Dad going through a divorce, is managing the holidays. I don't mean fighting over who gets to see who because thankfully we don't have that problem. I'm referring to things like simply navigating the day. Before all of this happened, we had our holiday traditions and everyone had a role to play. When people are missing, the role goes unfilled and it sometimes changes everything. We were in a remote location with no other people around. We took out masks off for the picture. This was earlier this in the Fall. Even if the traditional activities are still possible, there can be emotional baggage associated with them, especially for the kids. This is our second Christmas on our own and we're still…

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December 24, 2020

My thoughts

My son baked a double layer cake

I meant to share this the other day and I forgot. I wanted to get this out there because there's so much negative right now, it's even more important to focus on the glimmers or positive moments. I shared the other day that Emmett had baked cutout cookies, all by himself. He did amazing and I'm so proud of him. Elliott checked something off his COVID bucket list as well. He baked a double layer cake, all by himself. He's been wanting to do this for a while now and he accomplished this the other day. I want to also applaud him for letting Emmett color the icing. Elliott wanted to do this all on his own but Emmett wanted to help. Instead of pushing him away, Elliott allowed him…

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December 24, 2020

My thoughts

I think I’ve created a monster

The boys have become very fond of baking and they are wanting to do so every single day. It's a bit much and while I'm excited they are trying new things, I think I've created little baking monsters. 😂 Yesterday, Emmett decided he wanted to bake brownies and that he wanted them to be chewy. When he was done, he brings me a plate with a huge slab of brownie on it. There was a time when I would have pounded that brownie down but not anymore. I ate about a quarter of it and thought I was gonna die. It was delicious but so heavy and I don't really eat that much anymore. That said, I'm so proud of the boys but we need to limit this a bit.…

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December 15, 2020

My thoughts

I totally got this

I want to recognize that I accomplished one of my goals for 2020. I set out to record 40 episodes for season 3 of my podcast and improve upon season 2. Today I dropped episode 40 and I'm done until next year. It feels so good to have accomplished this, especially considering l the obstacles. I've already got interviews booked for January and that's awesome. It took a little longer to get this last one out cause it's been a rough weekend but I was only about 48 hours late. ☺ The kids have been on edge today. We're getting closer to Christmas and the anxiety is building, as is the anticipation. This is historically a challenging time in our house, even when everything else is going well. Everyone's sleep…

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December 14, 2020

Gavin / Inspirational Posts / My thoughts

My #autistic son gave himself a haircut today

I know some of you may not get how unbelievably awesome this is but I'm sure you'll be excited for Gavin nonetheless. Gavin has made it very clear that he wants to live with peers or other people his age, likely walking a similar path in life. Lizze and I have been talking about this and I feel this is a hugely positive thing, as does she. The challenge is how to navigate this and whether or not Gavin can handle it. Actually, it's more like how much independence is he capable of without serious safety concerns. Obviously, nothing can or will happen until we're in a post COVID world but that doesn't mean I can't work with Gavin to help him reach his potential while we wait. This morning,…

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December 12, 2020

My thoughts

I’m really nervous about this

By the time you read this, we will likely be on the other side of this particular situation. In the morning, we have someone coming to service our furnace. Something is very wrong with it and it needs to get done or we won't have any heat. Normally this wouldn't be a big deal but since COVID, nothing is not a big deal anymore. I reached out to some medical experts I know to figure out the safest approach to having this done. After chatting for a little bit, it was concluded that assuming they actually wear a mask like I was promised they would, and we stay as far away as we can, while wearing our own masks, the risk should be low. The current plan is to have…

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December 10, 2020

My thoughts

This is how I know I let my kids down and it breaks my heart

I've been under a tremendous amount of pressure this year. I was getting my footing as a single Dad when COVID hit and our lives were once again turned upside down. I'm honestly doing the best I can but I was recently reminded that I need to do better. This story involves Emmett in particular but I'm sure it applies to Elliott and Gavin to some extent as well. Emmett is the absolute sweetest kid. He's going through a rough time but he's always worried about me. Ever since Lizze moved out, he's constantly asking me if I'm okay. Becoming a single parent is not an easy adjustment and while I do my best to manage the emotions and stress, it doesn't always go so well. I've been stressed out…

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December 5, 2020