It's like a fucking roller-coaster because my kids are really sick, then they seem to feel a little better and then go back to being sick again. I guess it's kinda the nature of respiratory stuff but the ups and downs are rough because it's difficult to know what to do. As of writing, both Elliott and Emmett will be home again, despite serious protest from Elliott. I'm not sure what's up with that but I think it has to do with avoiding going to the doctors. If he's back at school, he doesn't need to go to the doctor. That's his logic but it doesn't work that way because this isn't a democracy. I'm responsible for their wellbeing and if I feel they need to be seen, they will…

It took a bit to get the boys to sleep last night, especially Elliott. He was coughing nonstop and it sounded awful. He's on meds for the cough, breathing humidified air (with essential oils) and using his emergency inhaler very few hours. It was well into the early hours of the morning before he finally was able to sleep. Emmett seemed to fall asleep a bit more easily but was up super early. Both the boys are upset that they are missing school. Emmett isn't fighting me but Elliott is really upset and not letting it go. There's zero chance they can go to school and nothing he can say to me is going to change that. Both are basically fever free this morning but still over the threshold for…

It was a long night. Elliott did manage to fall asleep and the meds really helped him to get some rest. Emmett on the other hand, sounds absolutely awful now. He went from starting to get sick to struggling not to choke on all the gunk in a very short time. It's like someone flipped a switch about 10PM and made his sick. I can't see either one of the boys making it to school tomorrow. First thing in the morning, I'm going to call Akron Kids and get them in. The goal for today is to keep them comfortable, resting and hydrated. Outside of that, there isn't much I can do. I have 5 articles I have to write before tomorrow and the kids being sick has made that…

It's been a rough day. Elliott got much worse overnight and his mom and grandma took him to urgent care before bringing him home today. I'm not sure what happened but he definitely got worse and I would have taken him in as well. I ended up taking the Emmett and Gavin while their mom and grandma took Elliott to get checked out. I needed to go grocery shopping and didn't want to have to drag Elliott along. We got the shopping done and got home just in time for Elliott to get dropped off. He's got bronchitis but due to his asthma, it's a bit more complicated I guess. He's on antibiotics, steroids and a cough suppression medication for bedtime. He sounds absolutely awful but I think it sounds…

The boys are at their mom and grandparents house tonight. I dropped them off about 1:30 pm and they seem to be having a great time. Elliott's still under the weather so they are possibly taking him to see the doctor in the morning. I ran a few errands and had an otherwise quite evening. While I needed the break, I am having a difficult time with life at the moment. The holidays are proving to be more difficult on me than I thought and I'm feeling very alone. I know that probably sounds stupid but it's my reality right now and I'm not going to hide from it. I didn't get everything done that I wanted to get done but I survived. I have a couple of jobs that…