Depression Confessions: Withdrawaling from #Paxil is a bitch

I'm going to focus on the depression side of my doctor's appointment this morning and dedicate a second post to the issues with my back. I mentioned in previous Depression Confessions posts, that after much thought and discussion, I've decided to begin the process of withdrawaling from the antidepressants I've been on for many, many years. I met with my doctor this morning to discuss my decision and figure out the best, safest way for me to withdrawal from both Paxil and Wellbutrin XL. Before I explain how I'm going to do this, I want to be sure that I'm very clear about this one point. Never, never quit antidepressants cold turkey. Doing so can cause side effects that range from unpleasant to serious. Always work with your doctor to…

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I feel like shit this morning but hey I’m alive

So I got about zero sleep last night. I couldn't get comfortable and as the morning drew closer, the pain began to return. I'm in the waiting room at my doctor's office right now. I arrived early because I'm hoping to God that I can get in early. I feel nauseated and I just want to go to bed. I'm also not looking forward to her removing the dressing because Lizze and I realized that the nurse last night didn't center the dressing. The tape at the bottom is really uncomfortably close to the wound and it's gonna hurt like a bitch when my doctor removes it. Anyway, this whole thing is weird for me because I can't see it and have to rely on pictures or someone else to…

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Urgent Care: A gross but necessary update

This is going to be a little gross, so heads up if you have a sensitive stomach. I'm finally resting after a getting home from the Urgent Care a couple hours ago. In the last post, I shared that I was in pretty rough shape and needed to be seen immediately by Urgent Care. Let me catch you up on what happened and why. I've had a cyst on my back for a couple of years. It's never been a problem and it was checked out by my doctor. About a week or two ago, the cyst burst. Since it's located right in the middle of my back, smack dab on the center of my spine, I couldn't take care of it without help. Lizze stepped up big time and…

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I’m in Urgent Care

I was trying to wait until I see my doctor in the morning but my back has gotten too bad. It's making me physically ill and I won't make it until tomorrow. My parents have the kids and we're waiting to be called back. To be honest, it's pretty gross and extremely painful. I'm nauseated from the pain now and I'm writing this to distract myself. I'm hoping that it's just antibiotics but they may have to cut it open. Not fun.. 😢 I'd appreciate some positive thoughts.. ☺

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Here’s an update

I wanted to take a few minutes and deliver a general update on my personal wellbeing. There's two things that are going on and I'm seeing my doctor in the morning for both. First and foremost, I'm meeting with my doctor to discuss withdrawaling from Paxil and Wellbutrin. I want to do so in a slow deliberate manner in order to give my body time to adjust. Secondly, I need her to look at my back. This is gross but I mentioned last week that the cyst on my back had burst, which is normal. I've never dealt with anything like that before so it had me pretty freaked out. Lizze has done an amazing job of helping me care for it. I can't reach the middle of my back…

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Someone’s not feeling good

Poor Mr. Emmett woke up this morning not feeling well. It's about 5:30 AM and I've moved to the living room with my littlest minion. Part of me suspects he's simply hungry because he didn't eat much yesterday. For now, I'm gonna make him something simple to eat and see if that helps. It's an early start to the day but I'm feeling pretty good. I'll probably sneak a nap when Lizze wakes up but for now, Emmett and I are going to watch the new season of All Hail King Julian on Netflix. Hopefully, Emmett will feel better as the morning moves forward.

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When doing the right thing breaks your heart and feels like shit

I haven't written much since Thursday and there's a good reason for that. I had a truly horrible experience and it really knocked me for a loop. It was one of those times where doing the right thing made me feel like a monster. 😔 This past Thursday, Elliott had an appointment with his pediatrician. This was a follow-up in regards to him having recently begun taking Prozac for anxiety. The day began with the very first snow day of the year and we all had a great morning. I noticed that Elliott's cheeks were red and I decided to check his temperature. He was indeed running a low-grade fever and I was thinking it would be a good idea to get his blood work done while we were there.…

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A desperately needed break

Lizze and I have the night off for the first time in forever. The boys are at Lizze's parents until noon Saturday and we're pretty frigging grateful. ☺ We didn't really do a whole lot of exciting things but we visited my grandmother for a bit, ran a few errands and grabbed dinner. After dinner, we watch the movie Dark Tower. Lizze hadn't seen it yet and I thought it was worth a second viewing. We finished the evening off with some more Supernatural and called it an early night. We're both physically and emotionally exhausted. It's been about four months since we've had a night to ourselves and we desperately needed it. I fully intend on sleeping in till Maggie needs out in the morning and I already told…

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