I woke up this morning with every intention of going walking but for the third day in a row, mother nature has had other plans. The temps have dramatically cooled but now it's raining/storming and it will be for most of the morning. I do plan on trying again throughout the day, as there are breaks in the weather. Instead of going back to sleep, I decided to catch Gavin before he took his morning meds and get his blood work done. He was stressing out over it last night, and I figured he'd appreciate getting it done right away so he could take his meds, as well as his morning nap. I'm writing this as I sit in the parking lot and wait for Gavin to have his blood…

Lizze and I had some tense moments after the kids left. I think that we are both so overwhelmed by everything going on around us, and hiding that stress from the kids takes a toll. When they leave, we end up purging. Lizze and I don't fight per se, but we both vent about everything we've had penned up inside. Once the kids leave, we can more freely talk about the things that need to be talked about. There's nowhere in this house that allows Lizze and I to have a private conversation, without everyone else overhearing. Our house is pretty small and even talking in a very low voice, is loud enough to carry up the stairs to the second floor. There are many things that we need to…

I actually got a solid eight hours of sleep last night and I feel pretty good this morning. The boys are going to hang out with their grandparents and probably even go swimming at some point this afternoon. This insane heatwave is still bearing down on us, so it's nice that they can get out of the house and go swimming. I have absolutely no plans for today. Lizze seems to be doing pretty good this morning so maybe we can do something while the kids are gone. As usual, money is tight and with it being so hot outside, our options are limited. Still, it would be nice to get out for a little while and do something fun.

I'm feeling quite overwhelmed, frustrated, and guilty today. I'm really trying to remain positive, but I need to replace our car in the worst way. We have four or five trips to the Cleveland Clinic before the end of the month alone, and I'm not wanting to keep pushing the car to go on these trips. We're having lots of electrical issues on top of all the mechanical and physical problems already present. It's frustrating because I try so hard to make everything work and while things could be much worse than they currently are, I can't seem to get us to a better place. I'm really trying to focus on writing, building partnerships and inking new as deals, so I can provide for my family in a more meaningful…